6 chapter 6 - the next step in his mind

I bet your wondering what happens next right? we go on dates, become pen pals, but what next?...let me tell you.

Obviously I had to go back to camp a few days after the date, yes I was upset but yet I had a job to do, protect her and my country and I wasnt going to stop doing one to favouritise the other, 'NO' i promised both that I will stand by them and protect them and I will forfil this until the day I die.

However you know about us being pen pals right?, well we talk almost 3 times a week this is because the post gets delivered every two days,tuesday,thursday and saturday. I always look forward to her letters, they always allow me to be in a hole different world just by reading them they let me feel safe, warm, loved, cared, adored, appreciated. Not many people out here have this type of attention which is why I simply adore her.

Theirs not one day that goes by where I dont think about her, she is constantly on my mind. I'm always wondering what she doing,how she doing if shes doing anything good, hows everything back at home for her, and I sit and hope and pray that one day I will return to her and won't have to ever leave her.

Its hard being across the world from your lover, it's like your both in two different world when I sleep shes waking up and when I'm waking up shes sleeping, it's well and truly crazy how we both still manage to stay in touch sometimes, I might be busy during the day so I have to wait to midnight till I can read her letters and yet they always allow me to sleep peacefully even in conditions that i am based around, just reading about her and her day, the way she misses seeing me and cares for me allows me to have peace, allows me to relax, makes me feel like I'm safe.

it's never safe on an army camp theirs always gun fires and test and bomb making and plotting and at any point we can be ambushed but yet the thought of her allows me to forget about the danger and allows me to be brave and fight through any conditions. just think have you ever had someone you loved deeply that allows you to feel the way I feel in the conditions that your in - either good or bad?.

However tomorrow is tuesday which means letter day, the day I can feel free, the day i can be lost in the feeling of care and love, the day I can forget I'm in war. dont get me wrong it's not all that bad but when your away from the ones you love and care about it's just a relief to here that their okay which is why I'm looking forwards to seeing how shes doing, feeling and what shes been doing, I dont have long left before I can collect my letter, just a couple more hours and then I'll be able to speak to my angle.