Too Much Too Endure

ZAC POV

She is asking me about what I did when she left and what I was shouting about. I know what I was shouting about. It was pure frustration that I could not spend more time with her. But I know that I can not say this to her. Because it is against the rules to date.

I do not know a lot of things but what I know is if you have this kind of attraction between two people then you will definitely end up dating. I do not really know what to tell her right now but I know I better give her a good answer. She does not look like somebody that I can lie to, so easily.

I clear my throat and then try very hard to think of something to tell her.

"All I can say to you, right now is, that I was a little bit frustrated"

I hold my breath and hope that she accepts my answer. At least I did not lie to her. Because I was severely frustrated.

AMY POV

I look deep into his piercing green eyes hoping that I have not overstepped by asking him that question. Then I watch as he answers my question with so much confidence and as if he did not have a problem at all, answering my question. But there is something else behind those eyes.

I do not know what it is yet but I am sure, the more time I spend with him the sooner I will get to know what does all his different looks mean. Oh god, what am I thinking? I can not spend time with him I should stay as far away as possible from him.

He will get me kicked off the ship if I keep on thinking of spending time with him. I better get my head out of the clouds and on the mission at hand. I take a step back and then break my gaze with him.

This time it is me clearing my throat and then I say to him.

"Captain, sir, would you like me to escort you through the department? Or would you like to do it on your own?"

ZAC POV

I was still busy staring into her eyes and I was busy getting lost in all that she is when she suddenly changes her entire demeanor. I am so shocked by her change in behavior that I stumble over my words.

"I...I...of course, I do not have a problem with the...I mean, I can go on from here, thank you"

I start to walk away but then I remember that I should still say something to her like "goodbye" or "see you around" or something. So, I take a few steps back and then I look into her eyes but I can not get any words out of my mouth. Then after turning myself into a fool again, I just nod at her and then try to get away as fast as possible.

Never in my life have I made such a fool of myself so many, many times in front of any man or any woman. But every time I am in her presence, I can not help falling over my words and having no control over my actions.

I will understand if she does not look at me even one more time because of the joke that I just become to her.

AMY POV

I am not sure what just happened. I know that I have changed my attitude suddenly and I tried to be professional but I have never seen a man of authority stumble so many times over his words. There was a moment that our attraction was so thick that you could cut it with a knife and then it was followed by an uncomfortable situation.

I know that it is partly my fault because one minute I wondered what he was shouting on the deck and the next I turned cold towards him. I needed to do that to get myself free from the control that he had over me. I wanted to go with him so badly and show him my department but I was afraid of falling too hard for him.

It is better for right now, this minute that he does his rounds without me. I know that Lucy has been watching our every move as if she is suspecting something. It is of course, impossible for her to know anything because there is nothing or is there?

I find myself still standing on the same spot just staring ahead, instead of acting normal. Then I shake my head and get back to doing my counting.

ZAC POV

I am walking towards the nurse to greet her but my breathing is still irregular after talking to Amy. I try very hard to get all my bodily functions back to normal but just the fact that she is a few feet away from me drives me insane.

I then go ahead and greet as many people as I can in her department trying not to look in her direction again. But then, without any warning, I see her standing not too far away busy bending down to pick something up.

Every curve of her body equals perfection. I watch as her body moves in perfect harmony and the uniform skirt is just the right height. I can not help as my arousal for her increases rapidly. I put my hands in my pockets trying to hide my excitement for her.

AMY POV

I keep my eyes on the work at hand and focus more than what is necessary on my counting duties for I know if I do not concentrate very hard my eyes might wander.

Then for a second, I see him talking to a nurse and my eyes can not help falling on his arm and back muscles. He does not have his jacket on, only a shirt. But it seems that the shirt is one size too small. I watch as his muscles struggle to stay inside his shirt. When he reaches out his hand to greet the nurse his bulging muscles go on full display.

Then I catch myself standing with my mouth wide open, just staring.