I have to leave

1 month later,

I keep thinking about his lie and my heart still ark in pain.

In this period of time, I have fight with urge to went to him and beg for his love. But whenever I think that he never love me and use me for his benefits I want to kick his a**.

It had been 28 days since we broke up and the funny part was that he never try to meet me or try to talk. I was right he never love me and never care about me and presence.

Last night, I was meeting with my college friends in restaurant. I saw him for the first time after break up.

He was wearing Grey suit. He looked dashing as usual. I keep looking at him. He might be waiting for someone. I wonder who got nerve to make him wait. While we were dating , I was the person who wait.

Five minutes later, A lady rush toward him. She was wearing white knee dress. She looked pretty.

He stands up and hug her. They were happily talking. There was a huge gap between our seats so I wasn't able to hear but I am damn sure that he wad happy. I could smell love from them which make my heart sad.

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I couldn't handle to see it anymore so I excuse myself. All those promise and vow faded away with no time. He couldn't wait to get together with new lover.

Maybe they were together beforehand. I might be unwanted person in their life.

I tried to convince myself not to cry and not to miss him. I ordered my heart to forget him, His sweet talk and his warmth but my heart wasn't able to do so.

Whenever I see him, My feel like I am dying from inside. I feel like I would never be able to forget him if I stay in the same city and same country as him.

I have to leave this place where he's living. I have to go somewhere I didn't see him or hear anything about him. Maybe like that way I can forget him and the pain he give me.