1 Chapter 1

I feel neglected today. Is the day I've been so nervous but then is different after it. What am I talking about. After all is my first ever assignment in my first college life. Can I ever overcome my hardwork? I am scare and worried.

- What Happen -

Is (Shila)her turn to represent her slide in front of her instructor. Continually, she described and explained on whatever it is on her slide she submitted. As her instructor putted his pen down, the instructor start to ask questions. The instructor shake his head and ask questions at the same time. Shila was starting to feel pressure and worry at the same time. Few minutes later, she went downstairs happily to hide her emotions.

While everyone is chatting happily , she is the only one who are faking her smile which holding it tightly. When is time she go home, she quickly walk to her car and start the car engine immediately and drive out of ther school.

- End -

I wanted to make a good image for my family but it turns out out to be not what I expected. Is this what the fate give me. I was too emotions that I tear up while driving. Arrived at home follow my parents car. We park our car one by one and get out of the car. I went into the house and go directly to my room. I jump on my bed and snuggle my pillow. I eyes were full of tears that is hard for me to be happy. Never even my life I enjoyed ever since my brother accident.

- Introduction -

Shil is my name. I'm a teenager girl who's not doing well. I'm born in 2005 , 13 November. My parents affair is complicated that my mom divorced and left me with my dad which he do not really care about me. Sooner or later a stepmom came and my relationship with my stepbrother was not very good. They tent to tease me till I cry then later on they become innocent. Afterwards the stepmother will hit me with a metal pan or with a thick long wood. Well, that's how my life goes. Suffering , enduring and living a terrible horrible worst nightmare.

Therefore , in this house no mater what I do or explain, is always the same . They just blame everything on me and hurt my feelings. Slowly my soul of happiness fade away . As for this , it makes me loss my friends who are close to me and I am alone. For four years , I have been suffering because of my step sibling. Not only that, they pressure me as if I was always a bad one.

- End of Introduction -

My stepmom bang the door and walk in. I quickly sit up straight and look at her. She walk to me and grab my hair tightly. " Shil! Do you eat your brother sweets again?!" she furiously said it. " I didn't. What? Did he tell you that I even stole his socks." my voice shake as I saying it.She literally pinch my face and my nose start bleeding. " You are grounded for month !" she lock the door and walk downstairs heavily. I sigh. Is usual thing for me. However at night , I was thinking about suicide but will anyone even buried a grave for me? Then something fell down from the wardrobe.

I was surprise. I took it up and saw a very old paper which are very yellowish that put for a long time like a coffee stain colour after burning.