3 I’m Sorry

"I need..." I can't stammer in front of him. I must know what I have, and need to say. Okay now, compose yourself... compose.

"Princess?" He asked immediately.

"Oh shut up! I..I-I don't even know how I could speak korean earlier! I just blurted it all out like it was my mother tongue! Well yeah! I mean, yes I am indeed a korean but I did not grown in there, so how?! I'm, oh gosh..." Im out of breath. I spoke another language that he might not understand. Let me breathe in and out first. Huuuuu haaaa okay. Another one huuu—

"Taejoo."

"Y-yes, imperial princess?" He mumbled.

Princess Ye Beom unconsciously called him.

I'm worried that I frightened him. After all, I just spoke dozen of unfamiliar words in front of him while shouting. Then she sighed.

"I just want to be alone. For a while." The princess Ye Beom flashed him a reassuring smile. But unexpectedly, he didn't beamed the princess back a smile, instead he flinched.

Do, do I look scary? Does my character look like a wicked lady? Oh God why? Did I ever write such a character like that? Looking back, they say that I am the second princess. Then that means I'm the antagonist? Why do I got to be her? She have such a bad characteristics. And bad fortune! The second princess is the very spitting image of a tyranness. A merciless tyranness.

But I really haven't pictured out what she looks like. And another thing that confuses me a lot is that, why and how the hell did it turned out that this princess's name is similar to mine, and so is my parents. I wonder if they also look like the same. I could recall that I named her this second princess, Min Rae.

"Then this consort must bid you goodbye. I shall take my leave now, your imperial princess." Then a servant, escorted first consort out. Suddenly he stop on his track and turns around.

"I suggest that the princess seek the Empire's physician. I may offend you, princess— but this consort thinks it is the best for the princess's health. You still look unwell. I shall take my leave now." Taejoo bowed and continued to walk out of Ye Beom's chamber.

"Huh? Ah, yes! Yes, please do so haha. Yeah." Oh, he's gone. That was fast.

Maaaan this will be though. I have never thought that this will happen to me. I mean, who would? All I know was that Im chilling at my friend's tub and then suddenly... I, I... what happened to me after that? I can't recall. I'm quite sure that I was just bathing, then when I woke up... I ended up here in my unfinished story. Did I die when I was bathing?

For some time, Ye Beom thought that it is better to stop thinking about what was happening for the mean time. And wondered if she should ready herself to sleep and.. when she tried to stand up, she felt insanely dizzy and there's this creeping pain in her head again.

What's happening?

"Princess!" Yelled the young lady that is now rushing towards her. "Quick! Call the physician!"

"A-ah.. y-yes! Lady Joo-in." Said the another servant.

As soon as the second servant went out she could hear her yelling. Frantically. She didn't expect that these servants would care a lot for this cruel tyranness.

Looks like I'll be bedridden huh?

"Consort, here! The princess!" Said the Lady named Joo-in.

A helpless smile formed into princess Ye Beom's lips. "You came back." I uttered, reaching out to him. I want to touch his face. I.. feel so relaxed seeing his face. But what's wrong with him? Why are you showing me that kind of expression again? Do I look pitiful to you?

"Why are you giving me such a look? Consort Taejoo?" Ye Beom asked him with a drowsy eyes while caressing his face.

Is it because of the character's trait that he looks petrified of me? Did, This character harmed him in any ways? Right now, just looking at him breaks my heart. It seems like I gave him quite a shock when I touched him. Does my touch scares you a lot for you to be bewildered like that?

Ye Beom's eyes then reflected the same feelings that is flowing through deep inside her,as it became glassy with these tears that she's been keeping her best, not to roll down on her face.

"I must have gave you a hard time." Ye Beom paused.

I can't, this just breaks my heart. How could I not thought about the other characters' fates and feelings while giving them their roles?

"I.. Taejoo, I'm sorry." I should have said this earlier. As she can see in Taejoo's eyes the confusion that is drawing him in.

He stands up and says:"You must be tired. Lady Joo-in, I'll carry the princess to her bed. Tell the physician to go here quickly." with a deterministic tone of his. Then Taejoo glance at the princess. "May this first consort carry the princess?"

You seem to always talk so lowly of yourself.

"Yes, please do so." Then he scooped Ye Beom from the ground, as he held her tightly.

Not long enough, he already placed Ye Beom to her bed and tucked her in.

Is he going back to wherever palace he's staying in?

When he was about to head out again, princess Ye Beom firmly grip on his sleeves and gave him a look that says that I-don't-want-him-to-go.

Did he get what I'm trying to say? He's just staring back at me blankly. She sighed at the thought of it's hopeless. He is so distant to me. She once again thought.

"Pardon my intrusion, second imperial princess! May I ask who the princess wants to serve her for tonight?" Said the man not too far away from the bed. But the princess can't see him because of the silk fabric that serves as a curtain.

She look up to Taejoo, and saw a rather sad or displeased expression. She tighten her grip on Taejoo's sleeves more, as she tug it. Then he looks at her way.

"Tell him, no one is to serve me tonight." Yes. I don't want anyone to serve me tonight. At the very least.

"Very well, princess." He said, then he push to the side the curtain of her bed and says: "The imperial princess wishes her night to be hers alone. There will be no one to serve her tonight." Again, he said it with such a determined and bold tone. He would be a great ruler. He is empathic too.

After that he closes the curtain he looks back at the princess and said: "The eunuch has left, princess."

"Is that so?" Ye Beom replied.

"Yes. And the physician will arrive soon." Taejoo added.

"I see." Ye Beom said timidly.

Oh God. The atmosphere here is so awkward.

"If so.. then can you keep me a company until he's done checking me up later on?" She asked.

He seemed taken a back by what the second princess have said.

You didn't expect that, do you? Then she giggled at the thought.

"I hope it won't be a bother for the first consort to stay with this second princess for tonight, won't it?" Ye Beom smiled at him.

"How could this consort? This consort would not dare to—"

"No please, after all you are the first consort. Just for tonight. I don't want to any of my concubine to serve me, nor I want to be alone..." Thus the fact that the princess do not even now how many concubine she might have.

It is because Ye Beom have forgotten how many concubine she gave the original character, Min Rae. Then how thought somehow drifted back and added: "So please, first consort. Just for tonight."

She stare at him with her full intent of him staying here.

He sighed and says;"Then this consort will be in your care, your highness the princess."

Ahh,I want to sleep already. Seems like I won't be able to wait for the physician to arrive. Oh well, there's no helping it I guess, huh?

As the princess's eyes gets drowsy and drowsy, she held Taejoo's sleeve tightly. I hope he won't leave my chamber after I fall asleep.