The Goodbyes

So, finally everything is as I wanted and it really fears me to death. Because when somethng is going as we wanted it is always followed by a geat agony. But I'm kinda excited too, for my life in new country with new people and I'm going be a MBBS student. 

Today, on the 17th feb at night my contractorr called my dad with a veyr good news that brought me a great joy and my parents a great fear of how I'm going to manage everything alone. Though my dad's ally's children are studying there my mom however had her doubts as she believes I get attracted to the bad things so easily. However, without showing the fear my mom and dad had paid all the money that is to be paid for the flight ticket and stuff and listed the things that I would need to pack.

The next day me and my mom went for some winter shopping as it snows alot in the country I would go. Being born in the south side of India I never had to worry about the wheather being so cold. It was always bearable. So, I really don't have many useful clothes that I can take to the new country. Its like I had to start buying clothes from the sratch. It took us all day to find the clothes that I like and I mostly ordered them online as its easy and I'm kinda lazy to go out shopping. My mom packed all the spices and the pickles that I like to take them with me but I couldn't take all the things I wanted due to lugguage restriction. I was allowed to take only 39 kgs of lugguage and I literally don't know how to pack all my 18 years of life in just 39kgs.

All the packing took us a week and I had packed everything I wanted. Well, not everything I had to leave back some stuff of mine due to lugguage restriction. And my mom convinced me that I could take them when I come back for holidays in Summer. Now, all is set to go except for the meetings with some of my relatives.

I still have a week for my journey to start that means I have a week to meet my relatives. Being the only girl child in my dad's side of family when they heard that I'm going to abroad for my higher studies my relatives are kinda mad at my dad and wanted to meet me before I leave. So, they decided to throw me a send off party at my village.

It was Monday and we started our journey at 5 in the morning. Its a three hour journey in a car from my place to the village.

Finally we reached at my village, and as we are entering the village, some of the villagers are wondering who is in the car. So, my dad got the window down and greated everyone that we met on our way. The best thing in villages is that we call everyone with some relation and I love it , being one as one big family. we finally reached our house after hell lot of greatings. As I got down of the car my whole family is waiting for me outside. It was quiet a site seeing all at once and my heart was filled with so much of joy. 

All the cousins came to me for throwing me in the water ritual. So, I was trying my best to not get caught because, once I get caught its the drenching in water for me. But finally they got me with the help of my second uncle who love me alot more than his own sons but always betrayed me in this water ritual. After a while I went to my room to take a bath and fresh up for breakfast. Raji aunt made me my favourite dosa with her famous chicken curry which is the best breakfast ever. As I was eating my cousins were teasing me to eat all that I wanted as I don't find these in abroad. And I was making sure I eat all my favourite food without leaving anything. 

After the breakfast we had some fun with water and went around the village to roam and meet everyone. As I meet I had little something for everyone to remember me with like a souvenir. I had the most fun and didn't knew when the time went by. Its the first day night and I slept with my aunt. I couldn't sleep well as I was thinking how much I miss all of this if I go to another country. Its not another city to come visit every month. Its expensive to come back once we go to abroad and when I say expensive we are talking atleast 50k just for the ticket. My aunt observed that I couldn't sleep and asked if something is wrong or if my parents are forcing me to leave which they would never do and my aunt knows it better than anyone. 

I couldn't help myself but cry while she asked it because this family is so sweet and just the thought that I'm gonna miss them and not meet them for atleast a year is killing me from inside. My aunt understood the pain in my heart and held me closer to her saying how lucky I'm to have parents that let me go where ever I want for my studies and for supporting me in everything I do. She gave me some pep talk and put me to sleep with a lullaby just like when I was a kid. 

Three days went by so fast wwithout even knowing with all my relatives and counsins. It was one of the best times I had. And finally its send off party day. All my favourite things and food items were there and everyone are so happy and also sad inside since, the next morning I had to leave for the airport. The party ended and everyone tried to spend the most time with me. I went to my room to sleep and my brother was waitng for me there which explained why I couldn't see him down. My brother asked me to sit next to him, took my hands into his and said " So, finally you are leaving the country tomorrow and I just couldn't belive it, not just yet atleast." I answered him yeah "I guess so" I tried my best to not cry because he was my guide and took care of me, corrected me every time I did something wrong and only my brother knows how spoiled I am. There was very little time for everyone to adjust to the fact that I'm actually leaving the country especially to my brother. We sat there talking for a while and slept together with my mom and dad later. 

The next day morning as I was getting ready my mom came to me with breakfast and fed me with her own hands. She is telling the things which I shouldn't do and how I have to behave with everyone since its my first time going out and leaving with some stranger is not something I'm used to. My mom almost cried as she fed me and I could see tears filling up her eyes. But she tried her best to hide it and acted liked she is alright. well, in reality no one is alright and no one want me to go to another country. The time has arrived to say goodbyes to everyone but to my surprise everyone is coming with me to the airport. It was a great new to me because I don't want to waste a minute spending more time with all of them. 

We had so much fun just like we were on some picnic, and I enjoyed all my journey to the airport. I want to be brave and not cry which I successfully did. By seeing all my relatives my contractor joked if I brought all the city with me and everyone laughed. All my cousins are teasing me to leave soon so that they can be happy without me since there will be none to annoy them any more but deep down all of them want me to stay. It was hard to say good bye to everyone mainly my brother who is also my first love, my boyfriend, my boy bestie and everything. All my friends and classmates who don't know my brother used think that he is my boyfriend since we behave like that. My brother also take me out on dates sometimes. I am gonna miss him alot, more than anyone. Its hard to say goodbye to someone with whom you lived for 18 fucking years.

Finally we said goodbyes to each other and hugged for one last time. My mom was setting my hair and asking me to be careful and not wander off in the airport. My dad gave me a kiss on forehead and wished me a happy journey. My brother just gave me a tight hug and said " remeber everything I told and go joy the new life in abroad".

And finally i went into the airport and waved a final bye untill I loos sight of them and boarded the flight.