Prologue

Arghhh! I can't do this. This is very hard. Hands, please come back on your senses. I took my wand out of my bag and stare at it for an hour.

'I miss using you.'

I am a designer and I need my hands to design bags and all. I call my secretary to grab me some milktea from the nearest cafe. This is all new to me now, my hands and everything in my surroundings. Is this the right path?

Someone knocking at my door and interupt me. No one can interupt me while I'm thinking. I might pull their hair. Buti na lang naayos ko sarili ko bago ko siya napapasok.

"Come in," I said while pretending to work.

"Ms., we need you to sign on this and read it. This is some important files from the chairman." She said and gave me the folder full of papers.

"Is Chairman fooling me? He wants me to read all this?" I gave her a deadly glance.

"No, Ms. I'm just going to..."

(ring)

Jeogi haeya haeya

Neoreul bwaya bwaya

Naega bulhwaksilhan miraemajeo

Jogeumssik deo gakkawojyeo

Jabeuryeo halsurok

Meoreojigo isseo

Jantteuk geobi naseo naseo

Gidarigo isseulge

calling: Old Guy named Chairman

"Wait, I'll answer this," I said to her and tumango lang siya.

"Just read it, you'll know something," and he ended the call. The woman leave already and leave the files on my table. I'm too lazy too read it now, maybe tomorrow.

"Set an appointment to my doctor, Marlia." I said when she opened my door. I know that is her.

"Yes. ma'am. By the way, here is your milktea, hazelnut." I take a sip on my milktea and continue doing my designs. My hands starting to shake and I think I need to see a doctor. I can't work like this. I hate that bitch because of her my hands became weaker.

I grab my bag then walk to our rest room to refresh. I wash my face and pat some tissue to dry it up. I put face powder and lipstick on my face then went outside. I saw Marliah talking to someone on our phone, that's probably my doctor.

I went to our rooftop to refresh my mind. Gusto kong maging lobo, gusto kong pumutok. I keep staring at my hand and they're not shaking anymore. I keep remembering things that shouldn't be remembered.

I put on my airpods and removed my heels. I wear my pointe shoes and dance.

'This is my stage for now.'

(The Scientist by Coldplay)

Come up to meet you

Tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you

Tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets

And ask me your questions

Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles

Coming up tails

Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing

At numbers and figures

Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science

Science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me

Come back and haunt me

Oh, and I rush to the start

Running in circles

Chasing our tails

Coming back as we are

When I'm in the middle of my dance, someone entered the door. I assumed that he is the cleaner of this space I kept going. I emotionally dance and go with the music. I did some pirouette, sauté and many more. I want to be myself again.

I spin and spin and spin and spi---

S-someone join me on my dance. I stopped for a while because I'm watching him. I can't see his face because It is covered with a mask. I continue when he offers his hand and my hands started to shake.

Nobody said it was easy

Oh, it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

Even though he can't hear the music, nasabayan niya ako. And when the song ends, he holds my waist and pull me towards him. He holds my hand but my hands aren't shaking anymore.

"You are still an amateur, Aine." He said.