Venting

My father is drunk again. It's not as bad as it sounds. He does say some pretty fucked up shit. Never hit me. Probably because I was smart enough to move away when he was intoxicated. I also never provoked him, just kept to myself and was silent.

He keeps on provoking me though, looks for shit to yell at me for.

"Oh, the dog dug a hole! Fuck is wrong with you son!!! couldn't have filled it in!"

"WATCH YOUR GONNA STEAL THE FUCKING CAR AND MY MONEY JUST LIKE YOUR BROTHER AND SISTER!!"

that's great father. get mad at me for something I might do. I mean I will fuck up eventually right? So you should just discipline me now....

I'm stupid. I love hearing that, my father says that he is smart. He is like

"Im the only fucking smart person here? HUH!!! YOU THINK YOUR SO SMART? YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT!!! AND HERE I THOUGHT THERE WAS MORE THAN ONE SMART PERSON IN THIS FAMILY!!!"

Exact words he said....

If your so smart, why are we living in half a house? why do you have a truck that cost more than our house? Why do we have to farm pigs? Why haven't you gotten a pay raise in the last 7 years? Why can't you have a better position? Why do you listen to people and help people? We can't even help ourselves. Bank calls every fucking weekend. I wear the same two shorts for school. We barely have food. Though he can afford to pay for a truck that cost more than 1,400 a month. We could rent a nice home with that money. My father is a show off. He showed off to a fucking millionaire that he has a 1 acre ranch and a expensive truck. That motherfucker has hectares of land and a $200,000 vehicle. You fucking kidding me? I was so embarassed. FATHER!!!! HIS FUCKING CAR COST MORE THAN OUR ENTIRE FUCKING NET WORTH!!!!

I just see the millionaire smiling and nodding his head. Just like how you pretend to pay attention to kid who can't keep quiet. Just nod and smile

He tends to pick fights at everything. He even beat the shit out of our dog, I was like "neighbours can see, and animal abuse is a crime"

He pointed at the neighbours and was like

"call the cops! I'll abuse this dog, but don't let me abuse you people"

Should I say the more critical shit?

Naww, that's to personal to share, after all.... we all have secrets that we even keep from ourselves.

Sincerely: Calamity