2 Chapter 1: The beginning of the end

I started getting beat and getting yelled at when I was just 5. He hit me so hard I still remember my face was red and I had painful bruises. I got picked on in school and one day I had enough and I beat the living hell out of this kid who was picking on me and I was sent to the office and my dad came and dragged me home and beat the daylights out of me. I became a troubling kid as I beat so many kids that year that I was actually expelled. I became tough against the other children but when I got home I got beat every single day. It was like what's the point of living anymore and if I knew what suicide was at that age I probably would of been dead by now and not publishing my life story here. I couldn't find a school that was willing to accept me so I couldn't go to school for the rest of that year and we had to move and my dad beat me again and again because I got to expelled. When I was finally accepted into a school I was still a troubling child. For a example at the end of that year when I was 8 I said you dirty mother fucker to my teacher because my dad always said it to me and I thought it was normal and I just smiled and the teacher sent me to the office and I was sent back home to be educated of my manners but instead I received more insults and beatings from my dad. I began to think what the hell is this bloody hell of a place is it really worth it and I was pretty depressed at my age. I had punched people in the private part and sweared at teachers and classmates. I was also a year older than my classmates due to being expelled and not being able to find a school that was willing to accept me. After I beat another kid and the last warning before I got expelled my dad roped me up and stabbed me with needles and hit me like a punching bag and I became extremely quiet and quivering in fear. I never picked on anyone or talked to anyone so I got picked on again by people and I had to accept it so I got picked on and I just went to a pretty bad school cause none of the good school was willing to accept me after I beat up so many kids. So I got beat by people and later on get beat by my dad and people call me dog eater and piece of garbage and I was willing to accept it as I fear my dad will tie me up and do more brutal things to me.