Boyfriend

"Eh? Boyfriend...?" i found myself dumbfounded at first. Taneeha was incredibly, jaw-dropping gorgeous so i shouldn't have been surprised that she found somebody to be happy with. I mean, who could blame me for feeling that way? Her long brown hair, her honey coloured eyes, they were that of a goddess. Anyone who looked at her just found themselves staring at her, the glistening of her skin gave off a radiating glow of beauty, and i was one to be lucky enough to be in her life. After all, besides these eye-catching features, her body was ravishing too. The crop tops she wore flow in the wind, showing off her well deserved figure. Anyone would be lucky to have her.

Apart from all the physical features of Taneesha, her beauty wasn't what made me want to stay. Sure, she was astonishingly exquisite, however. Her personality was one of an comedian, a funny one must i add. We shared so many things in common, the softness but fire in our hearts, video games, music, and especially attractions towards people. She was my other half, my soulmate, just. Not as a lover, she was my best friend soulmate!

"Yes, boyfriend. Not single and ready to mingle, i am happily taken now."

"To whom might i ask?"

"Kallum. You remember him, right?"

"Oh him! That's fantastic, 'Neesh. I'm incredibly happy for you both."

After this, she went on telling me the stories on how they met, the time they became good friends which escalated to becoming best friends and now, partners! They were indeed right for each other in my book, unlike her previous boyfriends who hadn't treated her the way she deserves to be treated. They mainly wanted to use her for sex, manipulating her emotions. To nobodies surprise, i was the one becoming the 'relationship therapist', telling her what she did not wish to believe. It worked out in the end, she's happy and that's all that matters.

"Say, how are you going with the whole relationship thing. Any luck yet?"

I sighed when i received this message from her, i was the unlucky one unfortunately. I've never been a first choice nor have i been taken seriously in earlier relationships. So far i'v had four 'relationships' that i never classed them as ex's. Three were childhood friends, should work out right? That's where i found myself incorrect. My first, Richard. After growing up, he turned into a big creep saying he wanted 'a full body photo' which i never did. My second, Sam was similar, except he wanted nude photos, again which i refused. The third, Alex. I dated him for awhile just like the other two, but it never felt as if we were IN a relationship together. He asked me out on sports day, i said wasn't sure so let me think. A friend of mine, pressured me into dating him so i did. Relatively handsome guy with a nice personality, sure i'll go out with you. We never were close, held hands, hugged or anything two partners would do. One day out of nowhere, however. "I'm dating Lindsey." I can't say i felt betrayed, but i was a little confused. She was my good friend and we never broke up? Instead, i just went with it. I wasn't one to cause trouble, or at least a scene. Didn't effect me, so why should i act up? The last one i 'dated', her name was Kaylyn. We dated for approximately one week until she decided she wasn't bisexual and broke up with me. This one hit different, it wasn't that she figured she wasn't LGBT+ it's that she never was to begin with. Truth be told, this did hurt my feelings unlike the others, because i seemed to really like her. Kaylyn and i shared common interests like Black Veil Brides and Pikachu. These were our favourites, however it just didn't work out.

in terms of liking people, i haven't had much like in that department either. So far being in high school I've liked three people. All became close friends with me, one i lost just recently. We were great friends, although we drifted after a few years, which didn't bother me. I find myself better without his influence at my hand anyways. With the other two, one still remains a good friend of mine and the other the same way. I'm happy to have them in my life, as now it is brighter than before.

"Hasn't changed, still lonely." i messaged, sometimes it does get upsetting, seeing those couples who are happy together. On the other hand, it's good being single. I don't have anyone restricting my freedom, and although i would like to be in a genuinely happy one, for now i'm okay with not.

"Tell me. What is one of your bad experiences with relationships?" She asked curiously.

"Well.. It would have to be that time i told you about the girl who pretended to date me" i replied, a little sad. This time happened in grade 8, where this popular girl named Ella and i recently became friends during our art class. Chatting through the 70 minutes we shared in art and PE i grew fond of her. One day, she asked me out. I wasn't sure, wary of course due to past experiences. Instead of scared i chose to be brave, replying to her with a simple 'yes. i'll go out with you.' i wasn't out as a boy to many, and in her eyes i was a female, being her first same sex relationship. "So, how is it being in a lesbian relationship?" This was what i could do to make her happy, even if i was a male. I was in fact the opposite of a lesbian, but i went with it, for her sake. "it's good." She plainly said, i was happy to be in a relationship where i could try to be happy, maybe hold hands? i never got the chance to do that with anyone in a partnership.

Possibly, an hour passed? I didn't know what to talk about, so i couldn't make conversation. Out of the blue she mentioned "by the way, i didn't mean it. We aren't dating, i pretended." a deep sigh escaped my mouth, the tightness leaving my chest and my shoulders falling. i just simply asked myself "why?" i never could come up with an answer to that, and i never asked. After this, we never talked again. Simply crossed paths at school, as if she was just another stranger.

"This is how my experiences go. Can't help that, but congratulations on finding someone who loves you for you. Kallum, take good care of her." My best friend was happy, and that's what mattered most. I didn't worry about my happiness towards relationships because i had nothing to worry about, more so. Nobody to worry about.