1 the beginning

It all started September 23 the day I was born. From the beginning everyone knew I was going to be unique. It started with my little smile my cute little smile that spoke volumes. Little did they know that wouldn't last long. Time went by now I'm two years old honoree little two year old. I misbehaved a lot everyone said I was a trouble maker but they always used the line "she's young she doesn't know better". I knew what I was doing I just didn't know it was so bad. More time goes by and we move we moved a lot when I was a kid. I just don't remember moving all I remember was I woke up in a different place each time. My parents were always busy my dad had a full time job my mom had two jobs plus I have a older brother so they had two babies to take care of has well. My mom barely got any sleep and my dad wasn't around much. Most the time when my mom was home she tired to get some sleep she was also in college classes so that didn't help anything. I remember one day my mom was asleep and my dad was at work. My brother and I being the trouble makers that we are decided to go outside while my mom was sleeping. At this time I was three and my brother was four. When we went outside our dogs followed behind they ended up running off. Me and my brother tired to chase them down but they were to fast. So now our dogs are some where around town and my parents don't even know what's going on. We ended up walking back home the walk seemed to take forever. When we got home my dad was there and my mom was awake they were upset. We went inside and they told us to never do that again and gave us the kidnapping talk. Then we ended up telling them about what happened and that we tired to get the dogs back but they were to fast. They said they would go find the dogs but if something like that happens again tell them before we try to take matters in our own hands. More time goes by and now we are living in a different place I'm five and my brother is about to be seven. I don't remember much from this short time all I remember is a story about a snake. So one day my brother and I were playing in the yard and there was this big tree in the side yard. We went over to it and started playing around it. My dad and his friend stood by the tree and talked we were all having a good time then a snake started slithering down the tree. My dads friend hated snakes so he got scared and started screaming. My brother had this spiderman thing that would shoot silly string. So he starts shooting silly string at it and my dad is just watching it at this point. My dad ended up killing the snake because he didn't want big snakes around his small children. Then the days go by and we move again. I remember a little more about this move because it wasn't like all the others. All the others were in town and had other houses around it. This time we moved out in the middle of no where. We lived in the country it was a big three story farm house built on 162 acres and had a river in the back yard. It was beautiful I basically grew up there most of my memories were from that house. I remember finding out I had a little sister there I remember having my first "boyfriend" at that house I remember everything. So I'mma tell you a little about these cool little memories. You remember how I said we had a river in the backyard yeah well we swam in it all the time. The bad thing though is the creatures that lived in there. One time we went swimming and my aunt got bit by a snake so we had to call poison control. Then there were other times that we went swimming with our cousins and would find alligator snapping turtles some of them were has big a young child and others were dime size. Most the time when we found them we would leave them alone and go on with our day but other times we would keep them has pets. We also had a lot of possums and raccoons. Now the story about me finding out I had a sister. So basically one day my brother had a baseball game and my sisters sister had a softball game. My dad went up to talk to my sister and I asked him who that was and he told me your half sister. I was young so I didn't get what that meant. Later my dad ended up getting partial custody so we got to see her a lot more then we once did. We would see her every weekend. Then later my dad asked to see her a little more and her mom didn't like the thought of that so it changed to every other weekend and tuesdays. When we saw her we would try to make the most of it doing fun things and being big a big brother and sister to her. Later on she ended up getting completely taken away I haven't seen her in about three years now. It sucks because she was my best friend the one I could talk to about anything. Why she got taken away will come later. So I had a lot of bad things happen in a short amount of time. My grandma had a brain aneurism and that really hurt our family but also brought us closer together in time of need. luckily for us after a lengthy process she survived and I am so thankful for my grandma but she will never be the same because of the brain aneurism she has troubles remembering stuff and she also has troubles acting her age she basically has a childs mentality. That honestly doesn't even matter though I'm just thankful to have her in my life still. Then later we got in a car wreck and we rolled four times I had a severally sprained growth plate in my elbow and my mom had a broken and dislocated sternum. Everyone else made it out with just cuts and bruises. My mom went two years with it detached and a constant grinding popping pain in her chest then she had a surgery now she has two titanium plates in her chest to hold it together. The bad thing about it is she can't do anything. She can't work, she can't lift her arms above a certain point, she can't lift even a milk jug without it hurting her. If she does something like clean the house she will be resting for the next couple days because she hurts so bad. Some more time goes by and our house catches on fire. It doesn't burn to much of the house but we couldn't live there for awhile so we were basically homeless. We ended up converting the garage my dad owned over to a house for the time being. That's when we lost my sister because we were living in a garage for awhile her mom didn't want her to see us. We needed up moving back into that house because we got things straightened up and it was livable in that house once again we just had to remodel one room. We one day decided to eat turkey and my mom left the bones out on the counter. We had a great Dane and three pit bulls all amazing dogs. Well my dog was the great Dane she always got into stuff she wasn't supposed to. Well my mom left the kitchen for a couple minutes and came back and all the bones were gone. Well with turkey bones if you didn't know this when they are warm the shrink but has they get cold they swell. When she ate them they were still warm. Two days go by and she is fine then one day she started acting weird we didn't think much of it. Then the next day we found her dead. We ended up moving now we live in good ole Missouri and things get challenging but always keep your head up and look at things in a positive prospective. Then more positive things will come out of life.