6 Delusions

Mmmm… this feels nice, this ticklish feeling on my scalp is mind numbing. I can feel delightful shivers towering my spine and erupting like a volcano inside my head. I want to stay like this forever. I quickly opened my eyes to see who was gently playing with my hair when I heard a hoarse voice coming from above me that sent my mind into foreboding disarray.

"It's about time you woke up, I've been waiting for you so we could eat together."

All the shivers I was feeling turned into dread. A chilling, sharp, mind killing dread. Cera was smiling at me with sunken cheeks and her neck, arms, even part of her collarbone was shriveled like dried magma. I tried to move but I couldn't. The fear that she had waited for me until I woke up started eating away my mind. This is my fault. The reason she's suffering like this, is because of me. I felt like something was about to snap inside my brain when I suddenly woke up to see a pair of small, slender legs covered with a long white gown.

"Cera!"

I raised my head and turned around to see that she was looking at me with a startled expression. My heart was beating in panic and after seeing her flushed out of the bath face she had, I couldn't reign in my emotions from the vivid dream I had just experienced. I don't know how long it's been, but I'm so glad. I hugged her tightly and felt like I was about burst into tears. It's only been a few hours since I woke up and I already feel like I put her in grave danger. I tried to adjust quickly so I stopped hugging her and sat down more comfortably on the bed while I held her hands.

"So what would you like to eat today?" With a soft smile I asked her as to not reveal my state of mind and she simply looked at me with her piercing blue eyes while tightening her fingers around mine.

"Why are you crying?"

I felt like I was going to cry but I didn't think I actually did. How did I not feel my tears? I didn't know how to reply and I couldn't look at her worried gaze any longer so I forced myself into her chest and hugged her again while mumbling.

"I had a bad dream."

I didn't expect her to start patting my back dotingly nor to ask about me about it.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

I didnt want to remember seeing her in a decrepit state that made me want to cry, so I simply shook my head against her chest. While relieving myself in my own delusions of her embrace, she leaned in and whispered in my ear with a threateningly fierce, yet caring tone.

"If you ever hide the fact that you're in pain from me again, I'll have to punish you, my sunny little wife."

She knows!! I didn't think she knew what being a lady of a house meant! That's not something an orphan would know! I knew there was no way she was an orphan from the start and this actually complicates things a bit. Did she run away from home? As far as I know, she claimed to be orphan from the very start. Ahhh! I have so many questions! But first, I need to calm her down. Knowing her, there's no way she's kidding. Punishment? I don't even want to imagine what she'll do to me. Shit. I'm getting so nervous. I buried myself in her chest and hugged her even tighter.

"You too! You have to tell me everything. The things you like, the things you dislike. If you want something, you have to tell me. If I do something you don't like, you have to tell me. I'm a bit slow sometimes so I might not catch on right away. I'm not good when waking up so I'm absent minded when I first wake up. I like peaches and easy to eat foods. I'm… also not very feminine… I want you to tell me if I ever act out or if I'm doing something that is unbecoming of a lady!"

I don't know what's happening. Why did I say all that? Why am I yelling!? And how is this going to calm her down?! I think I might just be pissing her off! I don't think I'm in full control of my emotions or body yet, otherwise why would I say so many random things?! I'm going to practice my Alm control more so I can get used to-

Cera placed both her hands on my cheeks and pulled my head up toward her lips and kissed me very softly on my forehead.

"Okay. I'll let you know."

Ah… what is this feeling? That lovely way she's looking at me and grabbing me is dangerous. My entire body is feeling waves of comfort. Her warm hands are sending tingles right into my head. I'm so unbelievably happy right now… I really love her, I love her so much.