1 Martina Berman
Hello, listeners ... my name is Martina Berman and this is the story of my unexpected rise and my destructive fall. To understand me and my story a little more let's start with my childhood. I was born into a single parent home, but don't feel bad for me, because my mom showered me with lots of love. I had an older brother, Dominic Berman, but he lives in LA. Don't ask me about my father because my mom refuses to talk about him. My mother is so outgoing, loud and social and I'm the complete opposite. To the 600 contacts my mom had on her phone, I had two. I'm not so sure why I turned out like this, having a mother like Stella. I have always been the kind of kid that hides behind her mom's leg and who didn't have many friends. I could almost go through the entire school year without saying a word and when I would finally say a word my classmates would say "you talk"?
Now that I think about it, being shy was lonely. You don't know what it feels like to feel disconnected from the world. When you stay silent it kinda feels like the world is moving on without you. But apparently not enough, because of my shyness and social awkwardness, I was a subject of bullying. Which now that I think about it, broke me a little. There was a girl at school named Nelly Hernandez, she was a picture perfect vision. Popular, lots of friends, smart, straight-A student, loved by her teachers and by the school. She was kind and nice, I bet she never noticed me because I was so good at blending into the background.
I know you guys will probably call me crazy, but I hated Nelly. My hatred for Nelly, ran deep. Because even though I was shy, I was a kind person and never hurt anyone, just like Nelly. Yet I get bullied! I'm not loved! And people treat me like shit! She had the life I always wanted. To be loved by everyone around me. To leave such a great mark on the world that no one would forget me! I wanted to be a queen and completely dominate this world. Sometimes I would dream about that world, but then I would be slapped with the harsh reality of "real life" upon my awake. And that Reality slap hurt like hell. I know what you are probably thinking, if your mom showered you with love?.... Why did you turn out like this? Sometimes you can still feel lonely in the company of the people who love you. Due to the events I discussed, I Began to unnecessarily hate people. I began to hate myself.
End of Chapter Oneđ
