Forsaken

Once, I was one of those guys who was left to rot fiscally, mentally and spirituality. Humanity never gave me a chance to demonstrate my value and those powerful beings in those guilds just mocked me for having a useless body. A body that never could pass level (0) or have skills; The Gods had forgotten about me, they forsook me, living me in that world with no chance to survive.

Every human that saw me at that time always looked at me with those disgusting eyes that even now makes me so repulsive that makes me want to murder every single being that I encounter in my path.

I was an orphan because there is no ways that those animals could have the same blood as my self. A poor orphan like nobody else, but no soul took pity on me, they just wanted for me to disappear from their sight; therefore, they would kick me or throw curses at me. Sometimes rich people would even pay those street gangsters to beat me until I could not even breathe.

But what could a poor insignificant being like me do, when they were strong and rich. When I was living in their land, their laws; in other words, their world.

Until now, I still think that I wasn't supposed to be born at that place and time because it just brought me endless suffering. It was nothing but the mistake of gods. Why would they brought me to that world as a cripple? Still, I hadn't understood it at that time because I was still having faith in them; waiting for a miracle and be reborn as a hero like those novels the heroes wrote and talk about. those heroes that come from that world known as earth.

Someone like me who sometimes would find a peace of bread or bone in the dumpster, would give thanks to the Gods for giving me something to eat that day. Although, It was rare when I would find things to eat; after all, I wasn't permitted to go inside the city. I could only go near the walls of the city because even the poor hated me.

Honestly speaking, I was a pretty boy; a noble who was disown and thrown out of home by his "parents" at the age of 6 when they discover that I was a cripple, but with no clothes to change, no way to bathe or eat at least once every three days, I no longer looked like a human being; skeleton like body, and eyes filled with despair, I looked like a dead man.

The last memory that I have from that life is when I turned sixteen. I was next to a tree near the road, happily because I had found a half slice of an apple pie. How couldn't I be happy when my luck was so great the day of my birthday, but who would had thought that one of those noblewomen garbage who thought the world was hers, would be traveling there and saw the hated my eyes displayed while I looked at the carriage's crest from her carriage.

A man next to her saw her displeased face and looked to were her sight pointed. At that moment he understood "guard, go and break one leg to that unsightly thing for displeasing this beautiful lady" he said. I was left there with my two legs, one arm, most of my ribs and half of my head broken. Yet, my eyes were fixed in that place where that piece of pie I was about to celebrate my 16th birthday with disappeared because the guard stomped on it until he was please.

How could I had continue to live in a world which I was no part of. I looked at the sky and howl until blood came out of my mouth. At that moment my heart broke and I said, "I, who never had parents or relatives. I, who never received something from somebody else, curse those who caused me suffering, curse those that abused me, curse this land which lacks even the smallest bit of love and curse the Heavens for the endless pain it brought to me, I offer the last bit of blood, life and soul that I have, as payment." I picked a stick that was near me and pierce my flesh until it also pierced my heart.

When I was being wrapped in darkness, I heard I man laughing and then a voice "since the Heavens has forsaken you then Hell shall take you," "but don't despair" he said with a laughing voice. "I, who's supreme in hell shall give you power since in your world was denied, also let you reincarnate in another world, but don't disappoint me, go and cause chaos and despair and make those human beings suffer more than what they made you suffer." This is my story before I reincarnated in this new world, in which I can cultivate and let those disgusting beings suffer my wrath.