Confession

Inhaled, exhaled. Inhaled, exhaled. She repeated countlessly. Would it be the best decision that she will make? Would her move affected them badly? What if it would get her hurt deeply and she cannot turn it around back? No, no. This was not the right time to regret and pull back. The faster it done, the faster the heart will heal. She hope so....

The sudden urge that hit her made she felt uneasy and restless. Her heart was beating so loudly and fast.

She inhaled deeply again to regain her composure and start running her fingers, through the keyboard, pouring her heart content on it.

'Hey, there. How's you doing? Hoping that you are always in the good health.

I am so sorry for the sudden interruption. I know, you must be shocked and puzzled with my suddenness.

But believe me, it is not sudden. I have contamplated a lot, and long enough time past before I got the braveness to be honest with you.

I appreciate our friendship more than my feeling. I am scared, so worried if my sudden move hurt our long time friendship and we can not be as close as we use to be.

I am so afraid if you choose to drift yourself away from me :'( If you ask me why suddenly I decided to do so, I would say that I am already too tired feeling this way and I want to stop the feeling.

Stop it and move on. Find someone new :3

I think, I have feeling towards you. Honestly, I do not know when it started and how come I can feel this way towards you, my long time friend.

Seriously, I do not put any hope as I think I can guess your answer already. I hope that you will not feel burdened with it. I really wish that we can stay as friends when after this happened and just pretend like this never happened before🙏. Wishing you all best in the future, byeeeee👋'

Before she realised, an hour passed since she started scribble the message, for him. As she finished drafting the message, she looked for his number, among her hundreds of contacts. Reluctantly, she click the message icon on his contact. She took a deep breath again before she copied and pasted the long and lengthy paragraph that contain her heartfelt.

'Okay, you can do it. No more back off, no regret. When else you will have the courageous to do it again. You can do it girl.' She hypnotise herself. As she collected her remaining braveness, she click the send icon.

'I have done it, I sent it. What should I do now, what should I do now...' She freaked out.

Pearls of tears can be seen formed and welling in her eyes. In a blink of eyes, she burst into tears. A silent tears fell across her peachy cheeks as she tried hard to suppress herself from making loud sobs. Dejection and despair filled her heart.

'Ahhh, it just a confession yet I reacted this way. How will I face a rejection?' As this though came across her mind, she chuckled. How ridiculous can she be.

Trying to drift her mind away from waiting for his respond, she took drastic decision to delete the chat. Hoping that it can gave her soul some calmness and composure. Lying on her back, on the thick and comfy bed, she closed her moist eyes tightly, attempting to get some sleep.

*Ting ting*

Notification sound came from the phone awoke she from her deep slumber. Still in her sleep and in subconscious state, she reached for her phone.