7 Its better for us

After leaving the room i was waiting for him under the bed thinking about.."what the hell is happening outside? Should I sneek out? if he finds out i will be found dead next da..."

My thoughts got interrupt by a sudden sound.

I look at the door i young,beautiful,tall lady burst into our room.

She was shouting "Where the hell you are you dirty whore".She was saying that to me i guess.

But why? What i have done?

Leo was standing calmly at the door..like he was enjoying the show she put on.

Then suddenly he came to her and embrace her in his arms and kiss her passionately.

I can feel the anger in me...i can feel the jealousy in me. He was kissing the girl so gently but hr never kissed me gently at all.

He always kiss me so roughly that sometimes my lips started to bleed.

"Who is she? How can she be this close with him?"

without my notice tears started to drop from my eyes

"HOW....HOW...can he kiss her so gently and for me it's so rough...ooo yeah...how can i forget? i am just a toy for him! Keeping any feelings for him would only hurt me..but how can i stop? how can i give up after all these?

If only..If only...i didn't make that mistake that day..if only i was a little brave that day...what a sl*t i am...what a wh**e i am....i don't deserve him.i should go away like i did in my past...it's for the best.i will go away from his life forever....."

With those thoughts and crying constantly for an hour i fall asleep under the bed