life has given many gifts to human beings, one of the most precious is your baby.. i am writing about my son. Muhammad yousouf about his life and me
Do you ever wish you could freeze the moments of time you have with your children? If only we could! Still although we cannot stop time, we can slow down our days and learn how to treasure the precious moments we have together.
the moment i gave birth to him, my world changed and i sometimes think if i ever die or something happen to me,i always want him to know.... i love him, i want him know that i will always be there for him....
I want to tell him that my entire life was turned upside down. That in the split second he entered the world, I felt the most profound sense of love and obligation of my life.
I want him to know that those first couple of minutes during delivery, when i heard that his breathing is slowing down and i also got in critical condition still, without caring what will happen to me next, without caring what if i die .. because doctors rushed to oxygenate me whn i was unable to take next breath to push him out .... but still i didnt cared about me and after listening that his breath is slowing down i didnt care and give him birth.....
I want him know thathis first feeble cries were the sweetest sounds I'd ever heard. That waves of relief washed over me, cloaking me in warmth as I wept in gratitude.
I want to express how scared I am Afraid that I will screw something up. Worried that he is'nt eating enough. Nervous that someone will drop him. And anxiety ridden as I watch him sleep for hours, gently touching his cheek and placing my finger under his nose to make sure he is still breathing.
I want my son to understand how undeserving I feel. To have been given this gift. This perfect little human being. That I am terrified of the other shoe dropping and something going terribly wrong. That I don't feel worthy of the heart bursting joy that has been brought into my life.
I want him know that i am worried about his future. i am worried that he should choose right path for him in life, my every single thought is just for him .
i love you my little chipmunck and always will ...
sara bano
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