The promise.
I,m so sorry, "their is nothing else we can do" award silence she did not MAKE IT....these are the words that will forever be stuck in my head as i stood in the hospital waithing room with my pops and my 7 years old little brother Benito, he,s screaming on the top of his lungs, although he,s not sure what,s going on around him, Pops in a conner completly lost, enable to speak i,m shaking thinking to myself no this is not happening but unfortunely it was.
The woman who give me and my brother life ,who held my pops together for years who was his medicine, who keep him away from alcohol and drugs...she was gone just like that cancer took her away. In her dying bed she fought until she just could,nt do it no more .
Fast forward ; 4 years passed
It,s benito 11 birthday party i got a few of his friend from around the block together to eat some cake and snacks, it wasin,g much due to my petty delivery job but Miss Martha our 55 year old faithful next door neibour who has been our rock on keeping us together the past few years. With the little he had the kid was happy ! And like má always usto say
"Sea feliz con lo que tu tienes" which mean be happy with what you got ..god i miss that woman but god know,s why he took her he did not want her to suffer no more and honestly ; neither did I so losing her would not be something I,ll be bitter about for the rest of my life i,m trying this "move on and be happy thing" i wish i could say the say about pops, since the day we put her way he hasn,t been clean or sober . He,s been missing for 3 days but nah' i aint sweating it he be doing this shit for the last 4 years making benny life a living hell coming in at any hours at night making a hella lot noise doing the unthinkable which is trying to get abusive towards us which i said trying" cause i,ll never let it happen , it,s crazy what drugs can make you do that,s why i,m keeping away from it trying to focus on school so i can make it outta here someday.
Although today was the day benny celebrated the day he was born!
it was sorta kinda, my big day also sofia my girlfriend for the last 2 years finaly give me the green light I mean I had been very anxious to be with her but she wanted to wait till her 17th birthday which was yesterday so we finna celebrate today also ! Hey miss M. thank you for taking the kid for the rest of the day , sure thing said Miss M; you know i love you both as if your,e my own sons! Youre leaving said benny ;
Yes i promised sofie i,d come over tonight i,ll be back to pick you up later ok enjoy your day buddy , he hugged me with a smirkey smile on his face he said ok; and where,s papi??
Me not sure what to tell him , i said
Papi out looking for your prensent
As i,m leaving the front door and got the this phone call that will change my life forever.......