THE DAY WHEN EVERYTHING WENT WRONG

[ Warning : Mentions of Cyberbullying and Suicide]

"How often do you hear things?"

"Every time....when I'm alone....sleeping, dining even when showering"

"What do you hear?"

"They are calling me, saying that they love me, like YJ!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!MARRY ME!!!!!!!"

"Oh! your fans, they are screaming, so then?"

"It has been so many years, at first I thought I will get used to it, but now I can't tolerate, It feels the same when I'm in or out, almost every time when I'm at home it's like SOMEONE IS BREAKING INTO MY HOUSE!!!!"

While his psychiatrist Dr. Chintha was writing the prescription, YJ was thinking how far that he can trust her, or will this be on tomorrow's tabloids, yet at the same time he felt such a relief that he could be open up to someone.

His assistant Sam was driving him home. It was drizzling. YJ looked out the car window and saw people were running for cover outside. As Sam answered his incoming call, he made a quick U-turn.

"OH! WHAT NOW?" YJ muttered aloud.

"Someone is lurking around your house, probably someone's from the area." Sam responded.

"Do I have to move out again? I'm sick of it." YJ vented his anger on Sam.

"Don't worry, Leela will see what we can do, you get ready for tomorrow shooting, I'll bring your stuff later." Sam was trying to keep him calm.

It happened quite often, but this time it was a neighbor looking for her cat.

"Hey! where are you now?" It was Leela, YJ's manager.

"Home, wait...what's wrong." He realized right away there was something wrong.

"YOU SHOUTED AT A WOMAN?, have you lost your mind, you are all over the internet. Why did you go out late night! ALONE!!!!"She yelled.

"It's all her fault, she kept following me, taking pictures, She didn't listen." He was trying to explain.

"Then what about her leg, you broke her leg!" YJ had no idea what Leela was talking about, but he had unintentionally shoved that woman.

YOU WERE MY FAVOURITE, I'M DISAPPOINTED.

HAVEN'T YOUR MOM TAUGHT YOU HOW TO TREAT A GIRL.

YOU SHOULD NOT FORGET WHERE YOU CAME FROM.

YOU SHOULD QUIT.

YJ saw what people commented on him. He had never expected that his fans would turn their back someday. He got stuck in his house, had to step down from his shows until things get back to normal.

YJ was setting the New Year table with his mom. He had been busy so he could not visit her mom in several years. Since he left home for work this was their first time celebrating New Year together. His mom had to see him on television even in past New Years.

"You ok?" mom looked into his eyes.

"Things will get better, don't worry, I'll do the dishes." Mom sensed that he don't want to talk about it any more.

The more she wanted to know, the more he wanted to hide. YJ might be the most outstanding actor, but not in front of his mom. You can fool your mother about exam grades or such things but not about when you are not doing ok. SHE IS MOTHER.

It was seven o'clock. YJ woke up on his bed, had his morning coffee. He had never been in his house before around that time. He heard footsteps, car horns as people were busy with their daily routine. After two hours he just felt as he was left alone in his neighborhood.

He was bored to tears. He used to envy those who binge-watched dramas all day, but he realized how easily he would get anxious when he have nothing to do. In the evening he headed to the seaside hoping it would be less crowded.

WHAT WENT WRONG.

IS IT WHEN I BUMPED INTO THAT STALKER.

OR

SHOULD I NOT BECOME AN ACTOR.

YJ was lost in thoughts, staring at the sea. There were a few enjoying the sunset. They seemed not to recognize him. Once the sun completely disappeared into the water, it was just him all alone.

HEY!!! YOU WILL DROWN!!!COME BACK!!!COME ON!!!

"LEAVE ME ALONE."YJ screamed as he started hearing voices in his head.

OR

IS IT WHERE I GOT MESSED UP?