13 Miyu: Looking For Her

How long has it been since I've felt the feeling of death? How long has it been since I've felt the feeling of warmth? Why must I continue to suffer like this? Is it because I know too much? Is it because I know the truth of all there is to know? Heh, you would think that in itself would be punishment enough. To know it all and yet not be able to tell a soul because of the consequences is something only a cruel god could come up with. Perhaps, for now, I should rest. Yes perhaps now I'll let my eyelids fall and let it take me to the world beyond it all. Yes, that makes sense I should do that. Take me away to the far abyss.

As I close my eyes I get flashes of my past. A past in which I wished I could change but sadly I can't.

"Hey Takeru!"

Before I turn around I hear footsteps running towards me. As I turn around I see this big bulky man.

"Hey, Historio how are you?"

"I'm doing good man. I was just wondering if you wanted to get some food."

"Oh ah... no, I'm sorry I'm going to have to take a raincheck."

"Ah. Okay man. Well if you change your mind you can message me."

"Thanks, man. I'll see you tomorrow."

Feeling a sense of sadness I get up and I walk away towards my home. Historio presence haunts me as I know he's worried about me and I feel like I've been a bad friend towards him. Maybe I should hang out with him more often. Within a few minutes of walking through multiple soldier camps, I arrive at mine. It's nothing too fancy at all it's just a simple tent with my basic belongings inside with a twin sized bed. Yeah, this is my "home" at least this is what I've been calling it for the last few months. The bed isn't too comfortable at all I mean what can I expect? The last few years have not been easy at all. With Miyu missing and with no trace of her I don't even know where to even begin to start looking for her. Do I even continue to hold on to hope that one day I'll find her or do I just give up? Maybe joining the army was a fool's errand, to begin with, and it's going to end up nowhere at the end. So this is where I am at right now in my life, no true home to call home, my loved one is missing or either dead and then there's me. Me... what about me? Do I even truly count as a person anymore? Because suffering from daily depression, insomnia and god know what else is going on really doesn't make me feel human anymore. Sigh, I really miss Miyu and I need to find out where she's at. I heard that the Scout Corps have a mission tomorrow to go out and check the town outskirts because there have been some sightings of an unknown beast. This "beast" sounds like a pile of crap but after what's been going on I don't know if I should be so cynical anymore. But... if there's even a chance to find Miyu tomorrow could be it. I have to be there tomorrow no question about it. Looks like I have to talk to Historio then. I feel a surge of excitement as my blood starts to pump at the possibility of finding some answers to the disappearance of Miyu. Don't worry Miyu I'm coming for you and I will find you!