5 Chapter 5 Marriage

Me and François saved a lot of money to get married. We were together 3 years and a half engaged already. The day before we got married we got help from my dad to organize the reception plans, who was saying what and put all the names of the wedding party. I was glad my dad gave me away and he even gave us $5000. We were glad to pay for our honeymoon boat cruise in 4 islands.

I was so happy everything worked out great until I found out my topper broke. My stepmom was drunk and she was talking like a crazy person and at that time she had a kid who was 3 years old, Sarah. Sarah was my flower girl with my older cousin's boy. Very cute.

I also hired a distant cousin to dance tango, very romantic. Our DJ wasn't the greatest but he changed music by request at least. Our reception was very short because we only had 6 pm option but it went well. Everybody had danced and had fun. We had a limo picking us up and everybody stayed and danced at the party.

We went on a cruise to visit 4 islands: Bahamas, St. Thomas, St. marten and Puerto Rico, starting in Florida. We went snorkelling and to a few restaurants. It was great and the cruise had free food and breakfast with jacuzzi's, pools and 3 night clubs. It was a lot of fun. We almost missed boat but lucky that I got driven to boat surpassing François that was trying to run ahead. Wow, we almost missed boat.

I was listening to a Spanish music from Jennifer Lopez and Marc Anthony when my husband François came and hugged me. He looked sad and couldn't talk for a bit. He said "A Spanish lady called me and told me that your dad passed away." I said "What? " waiting for him in disbelief to hear him say he is joking but he just started crying and repeated the sentence. I was I shock and disbelief, I didn't know what to say or do.

I called my sister and she got a call also. I called my brother and we went to pick them up. In the car my sister said " If somebody is joking around with us, I will kill them." In my family there is anger first as a reaction, crying is only when you are facing the truth. We walk in the hospital room full of people and it looked like we were the last ones that were called. They told us to go see my dad's body and it was the first time I saw a dead person in my life. He looked like he was sleeping and still without any colour in his face. He had a tube in his mouth and I just fell on top of Him and started crying. My sister and brother started saying "sorry dad " over and over, me too.

We were interrupted by my uncle and aunt. I couldn't believe that my strong dad could ever die. I thought he would be with us for a long time. I tried to pull a hair from him to see that he was really gone but he didn't move. My aunt told me to open his eyes and not knowing about dead people, I had nightmares about that for a long time. Even closing my eyes I could see his eyes.

That year we decided to start getting pregnant, but it didn't happen the first year. I had a new job in the call Center and I had to start my Materna pills and I forgot about the whole baby thing after a while. I was sad and angry for a long time after my dad passed away.

My friend got pregnant before me and it seemed like everybody was having babies around me. It was stressful and on top of that, my dad passed away a few months ago. My dad's girlfriend got all of my dad's house, car and money, she promised $10 000 each for my sister, brother and me but it turned out to be $5000 instead. I understand that she had to pay for lots of things but it was done in a terrible way. Five years later she invited me to her birthday and I went. It was the same house and it felt comforting, like he was still there.

Of course out of topic, Miguel's sister was there, we went outside to talk and she told my sister and me, that Miguel is getting married. I was in shock and I guess I had a strong reaction that she said, " my brother had the same reaction when I told him you were getting married" My head wasn't there anymore, I was thinking about all the encounters with him and I completely forgot about him. I had a terrible year anyways not like I would have changed anything so, I left the conversation.

My dad's girlfriend went to court for the accident as well, the one that broke his arm and also made his heart even weaker making his aneurysm burst. We never saw any other money after that. She was harassed from my aunts and uncles and she decided to live far away from us. I was a a realtor back then and I helped her sell the house. She told me she will give us more as inheritance when she passes but I really don't care about her or the money. She also reminds me of my dad when I see her so I really didn't want to see her again.

François and me, were looking for a house in the country and decided to leave Toronto, far away from people.

François started working from home so it would have been fine to live in the country. A few months later when we moved to our new house and I was lifting heavy stuff during move. I was feeling sick all the time. I bought some pregnancy tests just to make sure and it turned out that I was pregnant. I woke up François, with breakfast and a pregnancy test.

My sister distanced herself from us too. We tried to have Christmas with them and she really didn't want to, so we went to see my aunt. Six month after, my sister was pregnant. I guess she was jealous and decide to have a baby too.