MISFORTUNE

Chapter 1

If she will be suffering the same she has gone through? Or this time the circumstances will be in her favor? She is drowning deep in the ocean of thoughts. Lying on her bed when the lights were off at night but every night she started listening to songs to relief her pain or the pain she has gone through and the fear of going through the same again. The day used to went very well but the night makes her feel again that she's going to lose everything she owned now as well. Anxiety too much anxiety how she can overcome? It feels like she is in a severe depression that she cant even feel but she is. Mentally she is retarded . The people who claims that they are by her side are the ones who hurts her too. She is just making her realize is this meant to be love? She is holding Love in her hand but how longer will it prevail? She is now cherishing each moment as well but that grievous moments she had in her life are inner threatening her again and again LOVE ISNT MEANT TO BE GETTING THE ONE U ANXIOUSLY LOVED .ONE DAY OR THE OTHER U WILL LOSE YOUR LOVED ONES. That fear always persists in her.

"A flashback to what she has gone through that made her behold the fear in her life. She fell in love. Ugh!! This beautiful feeling turned out to be her misfortune. How indecisively she walked that path that wasn't meant to be her destiny. Recklessly she put herself in difficult situations. Although those feelings were true. That bond retained honesty but the fate was isn't in their favor. She aimed at a destiny with the one who was righteous but maybe couldn't hold her hand tightly. She hoped but in THE HOPE OF HOPING SHE FALL. Someone said it rightly

YOU COULDNOT DECIDE WHETHER U DESTINED TO BE LIVED WITH THE ONE U DESIRE TO LOVE. HOPE BECAUSE ONLY THAT LIGHT WILL HOLD U CONSISTENTLY IN YOUR GOALS."

The feelings back took a lot of time to retain her normal condition.. Deprived of these tensions ..But now love has held her more strongly. Maybe that was the first time she easily bear thinking only that RIGHT IS WAITING FOR U.. thinking that GOD IS THE BEST PLANNER AND KNOWS WHAT IS BETTER FOR U. Scars heal but they left a mark and that mark is the fear in her. Maybe that will always persist(crying)…

Love is deeply immersed in her. Living with the fear doesn't means that she was psychologically ill. What she has gone through is hard to describe. She is just finding a way to reach her destiny because if all that happens again she will be shattered into pieces.

She is drowning deep in the ocean of thoughts. A strong sense of support she needs . A surety that she will not fell down again Although a hand is holding her tightly. A hand that will be always holding her no matter what happens. But still she feels that she is falling.

Is this her psyche or she is getting too much possessive about? She has created her own meaning of love comprising attributes which she is lacking from the Love she receives. This is not normal. She needs to be monitored . This is effecting her health. Her neurons may got damage. At night she cries in the day she pretends to smile. Her sufferings are inertly deteriorating her but no one is aware of nor she is. Does she wants to live life like this? A path she has chosen but will all the odds be in her favor.

And in sigh every night she asks herself!!!

Coz Hopes have now even faded as well!!!