1 "STRUGGLING OF BRAIN"

Here we go... I am bella and 19 years old probably the last year of my teen-age but there is something in my life which is so horrible and I also don't know what it meant for. I am suffering from a lot of nightmares since I started my teen-age. It was always me running hard to get out of my dreams but I failed every time. I used to think before what it could be. Is it someone who wants my help or is it someone who wants to harm me. I kept thinking and thinking all the time but every time the conclusion was nothing. Thus due to this struggling of my brain all nights were sleepless but then I thought may be it is a psychological problem and left all my questions as untold.

I hade no idea that my ignorance would lead to such miserable situation which I never thought of in my entire life. Yes it was something and that something was with me!

That something was a spirit!

Yes exactly!! As I can feel his appearance around me that someone is watching me. I used to see some shadow too but I refused every time to believe that. You can say may be I was brave but when I came to know about this I used to get scared by even thinking of it. At once I thought now my life is nothing. My brain and my mind was getting sick thinking of it at a corner of the room all day all night.

But then he came into my life. He was Casper. I saw him once and at first sight fell in love with him. He was such a handsome personality but with a lot of attitude. Then after some days I proposed him and guess what!! He rejected me.

Sad for me and tends my depression into another level. I used to think why he rejected me. I thought no one can ever reject me because I was so beautiful and stunning but it made me a broken heart person. Still I had hope that he would realise sooner or later what he lost. And guess what!!!

He realised!!!

It was the happiest day of my life!!!

I was glad and also shocked how all of the sudden?

But then I told my self that you are just overthinking. It is normal. May be he fell in love with me same as I did.

I was trying to be positive after all of the negativity, rejection and also the demon with me.

But wait!! Do you think you can get someone that easily?

There was something missing always but I never bother to give attention to any uncertain thing.

We dated for almost 3 years and then after a huge massive fight broke up.

That breakup was the hardest to heal but I recovered from it because I was a warrior.

My heart was broken and after him never allowed anyone to come. But one day I was struggling with my anxiety and something pop up on my screen.

It was him!

To be continued...