2 CHAPTER 2

REIGN AMBER VELLAS POV

"shall we start?" he formally asked in all of us who were inside the operating room.

damn!! I couldn't understand why I am nervous.

I can do this!

"yes doc" we said in unison.

Fvck! Why I can't I focus?

Amber!!Focus!

"scalpel" Doc Ashton seriously said.

I immediately took the scalpel give it to him in trembling, and I really almost let go of it.

damn! why I am trembling??!

"you are trembling Nurse Amber, please calmed yourself" He said seriously while operating the patient.

Crap!

"I-Im s-sorry doc" I said in a slow tone.

Damn it! no matter what I do I can't focus 'cause I'm too nervous, not because of the operation itself but because of his presence and what he can tell me when I make a mistake, my mind is too occupied

"curve mayo scissor" He said.

I immediately handed him the scissor, and I just received a death glare from him, I was suddenly nervous because of the way he looked, so I looked at him as if I'm asking a question.

"I said curve mayo scissor not iris scissor Nurse Amber" he said emphatically.

I looked at the scissor I'm giving him, oh my gosh !! I am giving the wrong one, I'm even more nervous because of my stupidity..

Damn! I made a mistake you are so stupid Amber! I scolded to myself.

"I-Im s-sorry d-doc" I said stuttering and gave him the curve mayo scissor, and this time it fell, I saw him close his eyes tightly and looked at me and he took the curve mayo scissor that fell on the hospital bed, I am about to speak when he interrupted me.

"don't say anything and focus Nurse Amber..." He said emphatically "... and that's a warning" He added.

He is angry, I can sense it! I am going to prepared my ears for what he is about to say to me later, I am sure he will scold me later, He can even fire me... oh my gosh! please don't!

WHEN the operation got done the nurses take the patient to recovery room, while me is busy in sterile area washing the tools that we used when I feel a presence behind me, I didn't bother to look I already know who it is because of his familiar, I finished washing the tools and sterilized it.

"let's talk" I was taken aback when I heard him talked..

damn! this is it!He is going to scold me, I closed my eyes tightly and sighed deeply before facing him, I got nervous because of his glare, I can see his anger and disappointed.

"y-yes d-doc?" I asked as if I didn't know why he was here talking to me.

"I didn't want your performance earlier in operating room nurse amber, you didn't level my expectations to you Nurse Amber, you disappointed me, you know that?" He said calmly but the tone of anger and disappointment is still there.

"I-Im s-sorry d-doc, It won't h-happen again" I said trying to avoid his gaze.

"did you even know that it can cause death to the patient and if ever the blame will be on your stupidity Nurse Amber, I thought you are an outstanding nurse, because that's the other doctors says about you and your O.R performances not just in O.R but in every areas... " he said with disappointment, I just bowed my head because of what he said.

Stupidity? I didn't mean to made such mistake.

"...but it seems, they are all wrong, because I witness your poor performance in O.R, it is kinda unprofessional Nurse Amber, human life depends on the profession you have chosen and studied, it is not just a job that you can just choose because you just want to Nurse Amber, in this profession, what you need is determination and confident your personal feeling doesn't matter here" He calmly said.

"w-what do you m-mean?" I asked while looking at him straightly, because I can't get the last thing he said.

He sighed deeply before speaking "what I'm saying is if you chose to be a nurse because of m----of what you feel towards me, then just resign, stop this shit Amber… you didn't even exceeded my expectations, you are far from being good" He said looking straight at me.

I gulped because of what he said. "I don't think you can be a good O.R nurse your hearing is impaired and you are terribly shaking… your constant attention is needed in this area Amber." He added.

"Your words are so harsh, just for you to know, I love what I am doing Doc Ashton, you don't need to say such hurtful words towards me, why not fire me instantly? You may have forgotten how I got into this hospital" I said couragely.

The expression on his face suddenly became blank and he could not speak, before my tears finally flowed I turned my back and walked away from where he was, I know, he knew I was hurt by what he said, because even though I didn't cry in front of him, I knew he saw the pain in my eyes because I couldn't hide it.

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I immediately wiped the tears that dripped from my eyes, when I was able to turn my back on him and took off the scrub suit I was wearing and I hurriedly threw it in the trash.

My tears kept flowing, as the hurtful words he said keep repeated in my brain several times, I was deeply hurt by what he said.

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Yes!! He was the reason why I became nurse... but when I was in this profession for a long time, I learned to loved what I was doing, I learned to love this profession. I applied to this hospital when I found out that he was the owner, but it was not my fault that I got hired. I secretly wiped my tears that kept dripping and went to the toilet, I immediately went straight to the sink and washed my face when I looked at my reflection in the mirror and I remembered why I got hired in this hospital …

FLASHBACK

I am here in front of a large and private hospital.

"RAEV HOSPITAL" I read at the name of the hospital.

Why did he think of such a name for the hospital he built ... I took a deep breath and went inside the hospital, and asked at the information desk where I could apply and he pointed to the last floor of the hospital with the black door, since there is only one black door and there is a plaque attached where you can read his name.

"Doc. Ranz Ashton Eustace" I smiled as I read his beautiful name.

I took a deep breath and turned the door knob, I saw a handsome and tall man with brown eyes----we have the same eyes and that makes me giggled.

"g-good m-morning doc." I greeted him formally yet stuttering.

"good morning, do you need anything?" He formally responded.

"I am actually a-ah applying, I saw in some magazine that you are hiring for nurse..." I said. "here is my application papers." I handed him the documents which he immediately took.

I really didn't read the 'hiring thing' in the magazine, Brylle just told me about it.

I wonder if he will recognize me, I wouldn't be surprise if he didn't 'cause I am not that important to him.

"your hired" He said without hesitation.

"thank you." I said.

w-wait!! w-whatt!?

'your hired'

"w-wait! w-what?!" I said in shocked when what he said sink in to me.

"I said your hired, don't you want?" He said with in a crease forehead.

"it's n-not that, a-ah I-Im just s-shock, by the way t-thank you d-doc" I said stuttered yet formally.

So, that's it? No interview?

"Uhmm thank y-you again." I just said and turned my back, I was about to go out when I heard him talked that made me stop and look at him.

"it's nice to see you again, Ms. Vellas" He said.

So, he remembered me. I smiled with the thought that he remembered me.

"m-me too, Mr. Eustace" I said with a sweet smile plastered on my face, before I totally leave at his office.

END OF FLASHBACK

I smiled bitterly because of that memory and just took a deep breath.

Hayss! Is it my fault that he didn't interview me, is it my fault that he didn't know my capability as a nurse, is it my fault that he just accepted me here in his hospital!!He's the stupid not me!!...Then suddenly I thought of something... wait! but...how did you know that I take Medicine course because of him… Only one person came out on my mind...

You crazy brat Brylle! your mouth has no brakes! Haystt, just you wait!!

Hayyss! hindi naman kasi dapat medicine yung course ko nung college, I was in architectural course in my firsr year then Ashton happened I decided to change my course and take up medicine, so I can be close to him, I am not bragging but I kinda smart though, so it is just easy for me to cope up. I actually graduated cumlaude while Ashton is summa cumlaude..

After the drama I decided to go out at the toilet.

'...you didn't even exceeded my expectations, you are far from being good'

He doesn't have to make me look like I'm not good.

Do I really deserve his hurtful words? maybe... I smiled bitterly because of my own question and answer.

When I was walking I met him in the hallway of the hospital, but I wasted no time to look at him, I just looked at my path until I reached the nurse station and accidentally I looked at the watch hanging on the wall of the nurse station and looked out the glass window of the hospital.

hayss! It's already six pm , It's already dark outside..

I immediately picked up my belongings and went to the elevator... when the elevator opened, I was a little surprised because ashton was there again... I am absolutely avoiding him and yet there he is again.

I just ignored him and took the elevator.

"are you going home?" Ashton cracked into deafening silence.

I just ignored what he said and didn't answer...What now?Just like that? After he says those hurtful words to me, he would just talk to me now as if nothing had happened? There's no sorry?

I just took a deep sighe and I know he heard it I see at peripheral vision how he looked at me... when the elevator opened and I got out first.

WHEN I arrived at our condo unit, I smelled something good in the kitchen so I went straight there and found Zia setting the table.

"Oh you're already here, let's eat" Zia said and placed the dish on the table.

I sit on the chair and start eating.

"hey!! hello to earth Amber!!"I was taken aback when Zia yelled.

"h-huh?" I just said.

"Something happened in the hospital that I didn't know? Is it about the operation" She asked in interrogating manner

"n-nothing" I lied.

"hmmm, you sure?" She asked assuring.

"You hard-headed, I said nothing" I said and continue eating.

I'm eating quietly when Zia spoke again.

"tss! I know something happened, you just don't want to tell me" She said.

"you know what Brylle and you are really suits to be together, you're too talkative and gossipy " I said to her teasingly.

"W-what a-are you talking a-about?!" She said stutteing.

"stuttering huh?" I teased

"w-wait, why the conversation went to me?!" She defended.

hmmm, something happens between them, I can sense it with her action just now.

"something happened between you two, yeah?" I teased her, while I quoting the word 'something' in the air.

she was suddenly choked by my question that make me smirk at her. Did I just hit the bulls-eye? hahahaha!!

"Are you going to kill me?" She said annoyed.

"You are over acting, duh! what's wrong with my question?" I said smirking.

"then make it clear! What 'something happened' are you talking about?" She said frowning.

"what? I'm just asking duh! that is, if you are imagining and thinking about it differently" I teased.

"What the...Of course not? It's just a kiss! Your cousin is pervert!" She defended.

I laughed when she suddenly confessed, I could see in her face that she was surprised because of what she said.

Seriously that sheepish kissed Zia? Hahahaha improving huh!

"hahahahaha!! did I hit the bullseye? didn't I?" I said laughing.

I stood up from where I am sitting and Zia's blushing face didn't escape my eyes ,

hahahaha my bestfriend Zia is blushing huh? hahahaha!

"good night Zia" I said went to my room.

"you witch! good night my ass!" I heard her shouted.

I just shook my head and went straight to the CR to take a bath… while I was under the lukewarm shower a lot of things and questions were troubling my mind about the encounter between me and Ashton earlier ..

how can he say those words?

how can I face him tomorrow?

What if I just avoid him?

Will he say sorry to me?

sorry? That's what I want to hear from him than we're all good.

"what I'm saying is kung nag nurse ka just because of me, of what you feel towards me, then stop being nurse, stop this shit amber.. you didn't even exceeded my expectations, you are far from being good"

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I just cried when I thought of that word he said.

I turned up the shower as if the strong current of water would take away the pain I feel at this time, even though I know to myself that it will not.

I immediately finished my bath and blow dry my hair for it to dry immediately, I just wear simple pajamas and lay down on my bed---- when I remembered the word he said..

'..you are far from being good'

My tears immediately dripped because of it----maybe he is right, I'm far from being good enough as a nurse but he doesn't have to underestimate me as a nurse, because it hurts a lot to be belittled by someone you love and you like.

I really tried my best just to be the same frame with him... maybe that's my mistake---- huddling in his world I know I don't deserve, but I learned to love his world.

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My tears keep on flowing, but this time I didn't wipe it, even once.. I want to cry it all tonight, because I want to be fine tomorrow when I wake up..

I just close my eyes and let my tears from flowing until the darkness surrounded me.

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