Lonely
"Hey…are you dying here?"
Stupid, what kind of question is that... you're not even going to help me.
I am in an alley, lying on the ground while raindrops are falling on my head, and I slowly bleed to death, my partner is under a roof while he reviews what we have stolen together.
"With this, I can eat for a few months if you die." Said my partner with a smile on his face.
He's not happy because I'm going to die here, he just doesn't care and if I were in his situation I'm sure he would be the same.
I am slowly losing my senses as I look at the cloudy sky, I can hear and feel the drops of water falling on me, I can also feel the taste of my blood in my mouth, and the smell of the garbage next to me is disgusting as always.
But for some reason... my feelings have disappeared now... I'm not so happy because I'm finally going to die like I thought I was going to be, I'm not sad that my life is going to end now, I'm not angry because no one is congratulating me even if I'm 44 now...
In my childhood, I thought I was special, that I was unique... but I was wrong, this useless here is nothing, I'm not special, I'm not unique... I... I'm nothing, I can't even consider myself a character secondary to the lives of others...
I would have liked to die saving someone like those comic book superheroes... well, not really... what's the point of wanting to die one way or another if, in the end, I'm not going to change anything at all?
They say that when you are about to die your whole life passes before your eyes but... for some reason I can't see anything, maybe it's because I haven't had a life...
I want to cry, I want to smile, I want to get angry but... I can't.
I slowly began to close my eyes as the only emotion left grew stronger and stronger...
I feel lonely
"I can fix that"
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I slowly open my eyes only to find myself looking up at the blue sky, I'm lying on the ground again but it doesn't feel like before, I'm lying on the grass.
My body feels weird like it's smaller.
Suddenly I felt like a blow of emotions and feelings came to me suddenly, for a few seconds I felt like a child again.
I stayed for a few more minutes lying on the ground while memories came to my mind in droves.
In just a few minutes I have just lived the life of a 10-year-old boy to the full, I cannot understand anything at all.
I feel like after I died I lived for 10 years in this child's body and now I can remember everything about my past life.
I really should have believed the bible teacher who told me there was an afterlife, but... why I can remember everything.
My mind feels completely different, I have a father...a mother, and a sister...I have money, friends, love...
It feels as if all his past life and the one he has now have merged, he has felt happiness, sadness, and anger in this life although right now he is not feeling anything.
My name is Alexander and I lived happily in an orphanage for the first 6 years of my life in the US until a Japanese family decided to adopt me. My mother's name is Musashi Akira, my father's name is Musashi Daiki and my sister's name is Musashi Hana.
My sister is 3 years older than me so she usually takes care of me all the time from the discrimination of other people because of my dark skin color. I don't have many friends but at least I have a few.
This world is not normal, people are born with powers like those superheroes I saw as a child and most people use this to do things like steal, kill, and other things that I would previously think were bad. The people who do these things are called villains and due to their existence of these, individuals who call themselves superheroes have appeared.
The vast majority of people in this world are born with superpowers but there is a percentage that is born without those superpowers called Quirk, they are called Quirkless what a normal person would be in my past life here is something unique and special that unfortunately, I am not one of them.
I have a superpower, a quirk, nothing unique or special, I can simply feel any danger just a few meters from me, the doctor called it Danger Sense.
I slowly got up from the grass to then look at the place around me, I am in a park where there is currently no one besides me. My mother and sister usually accompany me here but they let me come alone today since it is only 3 blocks from my house.
I slowly began to walk towards where I remembered my house being while I let my mind process what was happening, I don't think this remembering your past life has happened to many people, maybe... maybe if I'm special...
Even if it's special... will that change anything?
I don't think anyone will believe me if I say that I remember my past life, or that I was born again in this body, everyone would think that I'm crazy
Even if I'm special... will that even change anything?
After my death, I'm sure that no one would have thought of me, not even the owner of that store I robbed must remember my face after stabbing me in the back. My partner must have stupidly lost all that money, he's nothing without me helping him.
But... will that be the same in this life?
Unlike my previous life, I am attractive and there is not somebody below average, I have a family that loves me and has a lot of money, and I am someone friendly and affectionate although that may change now.
Still... will I change anything?
In front of me was the gate that gave way to my house, something that I had only once in my previous life, it has two floors and is quite large, it is noticeable that they have money. I slowly opened the gate to enter and close it again, then I calmly walked towards the door of my house and opened it as if I had lived here all my life, even if it had only been 11 years.
Is it really... worth living again?