Memory - part 2

" this is a nice house . Imma big fan of clean too " he said

" yeah ? Thats nice to hear . So anyway- "

I woke up again . This time the dream wasent about jessica . It was about the person before her , carl walter . I remember i invited him to my house for a chat about something...it was something we both liked i guess . I glanced at my bedside table and saw the little blue diary . Shrugging , i took out my pen and wrote on the first page

' HAD A DREAM ABOUT A CONVERSATION WITH CARL WALTER . GETTING CLOSE I THINK '

And closed it . On an unknown impluse , i got up and changed out of my night suit . I called in sick at the office and walked out of the house to the cafe .

' WENT TO THE CAFE TO MEET HER '

There she was , in a maroon coloured strapless dress . She was doing some work on her laptop .

" hey " i said . It was then that i realized i dont know her name

She looked up and smiled " knew you'd come . Sit " i sat down . My fingers entwined together

" so heres what i got . Jessica Ferguson was last sited going into the woods at about 10:30 pm by a local . When did you last met her . Can you remember? "

I simply shook my head " umm unrelated but..i never asked your name "

She blinks and then says " Ashley . Ashley young "

" oh ok . Back to the topic , i last met her 2 days before she went missing. As far as i remember we just talked casually and she said she'll come meet me tomorrow too " why am i telling her this ? I never agreed to help her . Heck , i never even agreed to be her friend . Why am i here ? These questions were piling up but i knew one thing . I was starting to trust her .

" hmmm , well need more to work with . Where were you at that time when she went missing? " she asks

" sleeping . I found out about her in the morning " i said

" excuse me " she said and went towards the female washroom

As i waited for her , i noticed her wallet beside her laptop . I scanned around. No one was looking . In a flash , i snatched it into my hands . Its not the money im after . I opend her wallet and took out her ID card . Knew it . She lied about her name . Its Iris Jackson . I quickly kept it back . Why lie though ?

' SHE LIED ABOUT HER IDENTITY. HIDING SOMETHING '

" sorry to keep you waiting " she said . We discussed about the other missing people and how much i remember. After that , i went home . By now i knew Iris was not only a lier . She was a fake . She wants something from me .

I joined the search party today . It was very tiring . The woods were very dense and we searched everywhere but to no avail .

' COULDN'T FIND JESSICA FERGUSON ANYWHERE TODAY EITHER '

I went home , tired and fell asleep .

The next morning i woke up , i found something that made me freeze . The new on the tv claimed that another person went missing . That person turned out to be none other then Iris Jackson .

I've met her . Right ? . I feel like i know her . We met at the cafe and , i think i found her weird . Well , i need to find out about her . I walked to the bath room and noticed the washing machine had dryed sheets in it . I dont remember washing the sheets . As i step forward to take them out , i feel like i stepped on something . Its that tiny blue diary . I pick it up and open it .

I felt as if all the blood drained from my face

' COULDN'T FIND JESSICA FERGUSON ANYWHERE TODAY EITHER '

' GOT A CALL FROM IRIS THAT SHES WAITING FOR ME AT HOME . THINK SHE'S PLANNING TO ATTACK ME . '

' GOT ALITTLE DRUNK '

' I KILLED HER . I DID IT . I FINALLY DID IT . I KILLED THAT PIECE OF TRASH . CUT HER UP . UP . WAS FUN . VERY . VERY . FUN . SHE DESERVED IT . THAT WITCH DESERVED IT . IM INNOCENT. INNOCENT . I HAVE AMNESIA . JUST NEED MORE BOOZE ' and the rest of it couldn't be understood . There were a few spots of dried blood on various pages . I had been drunk when i wrote this . thats when i suddenly got flashbacks

Her waiting for me

Her telling me what to do

Her belittling me

Me killing her

Me chopping off her wretched head

Me washing the dirty sheets

Me burying the body far away in the woods

Me getting drunk

The diary dropped from my hands and i trembled all over . Did i really do something this horrible ? I stumbled across the room and walked upstairs to bed . I laid there thinking what to do now ? Turn myself in ? No thanks...but the search party will be going deeper in the woods tomorrow. What if they find out ? Was i wearing gloves when i did it ?

I made a decision of moving the body someplace else tonight . As i drove my way into the woods , it seemed like the silence was eating me . Tall trees looking down at me . The darkness surrounding. Surprisingly i had automatically driven to the spot where i buried her like it was a thing at the back of my mind .

I took out the bag and shovel . I flashed my torch at the gravel but i couldn't remember where exactly i had buried it . Randomly choosing a spot i felt sure of , i started digging . After few minutes of digging, i saw copper coloured hair . This is the head . Need to find all pieces .

Unfortunately, the batteries of my flashlight died and now i was left in the dark digging up the corpse . My anxiety was getting the better of me . My hands and feet were trembling. I felt like there was something watching me from the dark . I thought my heart would jump out of my throat as i picked up the head in the dark , imagining its dead cold blue eyes staring back at me and placed it in the bag . I begin to dig the earth back when suddenly i heard voices . Human voices . Someone was coming . Two people. Talking . I picked up my things and went back to my car . And then drove away slowly. The feeling of being watched still lingering

Upon reaching home , i shut close my door and all windows . With a hard gulp , i unziped the bag and opened it .

Terror creeped into my body and my face grew pale .

It wasent Iris's head i was holding...it was jessica's...

And then i remembered...

Remembered them all..

I turned my head to look into the mirror . I smirked . Then giggled. Soon the giggling turned into uncontrollable laughter .

well , its ok . I have amnesia . I know nothing . Its ok . Its fine . Afterall it was me and not me at the same time

Deny

Staring at the mirror for awhile , i say to him

" i know this gets you excited but be careful next time . Fred almost got a heart attack . Because of you now he knows everything "

Few seconds later im grinning devilishly and saying " yeah yeah fine . Writing in the diary was my mistake  "