5 After a long time

It's him.

The man noticed her observing him and looked up meeting her gaze.

I…I... How did I end up here?

Rowan raised his eyebrows at her. "I thought you might ask how are you or simply hi"?

I don't think we are that close to this formality. I said with my watery eyes.

I was a little disappointed by her reaction.

She chuckled, yeah!! it hurts to remember how close we were back then?

we were very close once but then it stopped, life goes on and that feeling end

I was really disappointed with her reply but I guess she is right.

It was strange, really a couple of years ago we were inseparable. Then remembered her last words to me when she stood in the rain and said, " one day you're going to remember how much I loved you... and then you will hate yourself for letting me down".

she was hurt

she was alone, depressed but I left just like that even though I know it will break her down completely.

she gave me her heart and what did I do gave her back into a million pieces.

I came out of my thought when I heard the most hurtful words which I never wanted to hear.

Every day I used to think of texting you but then I thought," if you wanted to talk, you'll text me first but I never got", that one pain I often feel which you will never know. It's caused by you and your absence.

I should rather thank you for teaching the pain to never trust anyone as they will end up betraying you. she said

I know you hate me, but trust me I never thought of betraying you. it was an accident. please trust me, Annie. I am sorry really sorry.

she let out a laugh

trust doesn't come with a refill once it's gone it's gone forever and you won't get it back. Even you get it back it won't be the same.

I am not angry with you since you don't matter to me anymore.

Annie please I beg you.

beg me for what?

to let you in my life again, so that you can achieve what you didn't last time.

"N..NO never in this life, Ruhan", I said.

I am tired I am not interested in the past anymore you as you are just a stranger to me now, thank you for your help this time, we are even now, and once I get better I'll leave and we will never meet again.

"I will never let you go again never never never, I can't let you leave, I can't let you go. I wanted to say I miss you, I missed you a lot if I could meet you all over again I will never let you go. we again meet by chance but this time I'll not leave your hand". I thought

get out I want to rest, she said interrupting my through.

okay, I said disappointingly. closed the door and went out to prepare food for her since she might be hungry.

once he closed the door I opened my eyes tears rolled down. I was trying to be tough I didn't want him to see me weak for him again. why? why can't I?

yes, I have feelings for you. no matter how hard I tried I cannot. a part of me just won't let go.