7 I will always be by your side

While I was still thinking about Yoon Gi, someone knocked on my room door. When the person's head popped in, I internally rolled my eyes. It turns out to be my younger sister.

"What do you want, Lily? Can't you see I'm busy here?" I said.

"Sis, I want to borrow your summer repackage album cd. Can I? I want to rewatch it?" Lily said.

"Don't you have any homework?" I asked.

"Umm I don't feel like doing my homework now. I just want to watch. Borrow it to me please." Lily said begging me.

"No. Go and finish up your homework first. Or else I know that you will go to sleep late." I said firmly.

"But...." I interrupted her before she could finish.

"No buts. Go and do your homework first." I said with a warning tone.

"Fine. I can watch it on Youtube anyway." Lily exclaimed angrily and dashed out of my room.

I don't want her to waste her time like this because if she starts watching anything or do anything else other than homework. She will be sleeping at 1 or 2 o'clock in the morning. And she's been doing that quite a lot. It's really bad for her health. She is thankful that my mom doesn't knows about this. She hates it when people nag at her to go and do her homework but what could we do. If she doesn't want to do, I've got no choice but to nag at her. That's the only way for her to listen to me.

If she's so bored then why didn't she go out with mom just now? Why must she stay home and annoy me? I don't get her sometimes. It's like no one can change her point of view. Making her sleep early is just a way to help her get enough sleep and rest. Since my brain is stuck now, I decide to text Hazel. It's been a while since I've talked to her. She seems to be acting weirdly lately with all sorts of heartbreaking post on her Instagram's story.

To: Hazel

Hey Hazel. How have you been doing lately?

From: Hazel

Not really well. My boyfriend just broke up with me last week. I don't know what to do. Tell me what should I do Lilac.

To: Hazel

If he broke up with you, that's means he doesn't deserve you. Why must you be sad over a useless scumbag like him? Tell me who did he get together with after he broke up with you? Is it that so-called close friend of yours? What her name again Milan? Mina? I don't remember.

From: Hazel

It's Milan. I know but I'm really sad. Tell me what should I do Lilac. Please tell me.

To: Hazel

To say the truth. I have never fell in love before so I don't know what to say. I can only tell you that time is what it takes for you to completely get over him. Try not to get into a relationship in the meantime. I'm scared that you would get hurt worst if you get into a relationship now. It's not good for you and your partner. The only thing that you could do now is do things that you like. Make yourself busy to avoid thinking about him. Don't keep on wasting time thinking about him. And another thing doesn't answer any calls or messages from him. It would cause yourself more pain. I don't want that to happen to you.

From: Hazel

I've been doing all kinds of things to forget him but it's not working. Every time when I have nothing to do. I will frequently be thinking of him. I just can't. Most of the things I do just remind me of him.

This is so frustrating. She's not even listening to me. Tell me how now. I'm not even a love expert. How can I advise her? She's gonna make me rack my brain for ideas.

To: Hazel

I know it's been really hard on you Hazel. You need to bear in mind that if someone doesn't appreciate you. They don't deserve your love nor your attention and I've learned it in a hard way. I know how it feels like when your world is crumbling down with no one understanding you. Although I might not understand your pain fully. I myself had my world crumbled before. I used my bare hands to pick up the broken pieces of my heart and mend it back on my own. I was thankful that at that time I've met you and a few more people who were willing to help me. They were the ones who gives me strength to be myself again and be strong. Maybe now you can't move on but I believe that one day you can. Baby steps Hazel. Baby steps. The pain that you are going through now is a process of growing up. I mean who doesn't meet a few jerks in their life right? But remember that you will always have someone who is willing to love you and continue be by your side with no condition.

From: Hazel

Lilac your words makes me cry so hard. I really felt like my world crumbling down. Thank you for listening to me. I know that most of my words may sound unreasonable because I myself don't know what I'm actually saying to you. Thank you for trying to understand me.

To: Hazel

I'm telling you this. Maybe now your heart will be close. One day you will find someone who is waiting at the end of the road and holding the key to your heart. Even if you have to go through some pain before meeting the right person. Love is no rush ok.

From: Hazel

Thank you so much Lilac. I don't know what would I've done without you. Your words really open my eyes but I will try my best to heal my own heart. Thank you for being there for me.

To: Hazel

No need to thank me. I will always be there for you. Just remember that.

From: Hazel

Alright.

Finally, she's willing to listen to me. I pray for the best for you Hazel. I hope that you would not let yourself be hurt again.