16 Chapter 16

Jennie's POV

"You'll see me again"

I practically jumped out of bed when I woke up. I feel so heavy like everything happens in real life.  Just know how dreams go from one story to another in just a blink of an eye? At least that's how dreams normally go. Well, that just happened thrice in a row and the weirdest was last night, the candy land incident.

My mind couldn't stop from thinking of Lisa. I know its just a dream but it still bothers me.

After taking a quick shower, I rushed out the bathroom with a towel wrapped around my head as I tried to get dressed in five minutes. I have no idea what that dream with Lisa meant but it scared me more than it should have. The entire dream itself was just creepy, the way everything just changed every minute.

I knew Lisa was going to be fine. I felt it in my heart. However, her telling me that I'll find her means much more than just words.

There were so many questions running through my head as I got ready, I didn't even notice the time.

I left the house and still i have a minute to walk before i reached where the cabs are.

"I should've get a car.."

Still have thirty minutes left, i didn't stress myself out and call for a taxi. As soon as i get inside, a memory strikes inside my head.

Its exactly the same scenario when i first met Lisa. But the thing is im still in Busan, and the driver was different.

And it was reality.

Great. The panic already makes me forget about that crazy dream and thanks to this scenario, i was reminded by her again.

The whole day was though, every minute, Lisa kept on running inside my head. The sight of the pile of papers on my desk adds exhaustion in me , I haven't had a chance to see Seulgi and Irene due that they were coming with the event at Itaewon so it was only me who ate lunch. I didn't bother to go anywhere and just had some sorts at the coffee shop nearby.

Im slowly absorbing the fact that im already alone in this apartment. And going to bed tonight was tough. My entire body was tired, but my mind just kept thinking about so many things at once. Primary Mino, where could i possibly meet him again and that crazy dream with Lisa, i don't know what should i feel about it.

I don't know why im overly obsessed with my dreams, and its already not good. Maybe because at the back of my mind, I always felt like if it was meant to be, it will happen - without me having to move mountains.

After crying for what seemed like forever, I finally dozed off and for the first time in a long time, a part of me wished I would dream of something else, at least just for tonight. Im so tired of this, i need to get rid of it.

I opened my eyes and noticed a cool breeze surrounding me. Everywhere I looked, there were huge, fluffy clouds in different shapes and sizes. There were heart-shaped clouds, round ones, and even clouds that were shaped like animals.

I tried walking through them when I realized that I wasn't walking, i was floating.

On air.

Thousands of feet above the ground.

I started to scream while trying to hold on to the clouds like an idiot, but never got to grasp any of them anyway. I was expecting myself to fall back to the ground any minute now but then I felt someone's arms started to wrap around my waist.

I quickly turned around and saw Lisa with a goofy smile on her face. "Hey there! I thought you'd never show."

I wasn't even surprised that she was perfectly fine now as compared to her situation after her accident the other night. It was already clear to me that consistency no longer existed in my dreams about her.

"What is this??" I wiggled my feet in the air. "What's happening?"

"I don't know, Jennie, I think we're flying," Lisa answered in a sarcastic tone.

"I know we're flying," I rolled my eyes before shutting them tight, feeling incredibly afraid of falling down anytime soon. "But why are we flying?"

Even if I knew that this was a dream, I still found it strange and creepy. Before the candy land experience the night before, my dreams about Lisa were always so normal and realistic. Now they're just typical dreams.

"Because we can," Lisa pushed himself up higher in the air with her feet. "Come on, Jennie. Fly higher."

"I don't even know how to fly," I said, trying to move up but instead I just kept tumbling in circles.

"Just think of happy thoughts and you'll float right up," she winked.

"Peter Pan? Is that you?"

Lisa flew back down and grabbed me by the waist, pulling me close to her. "Hold on tight."

The next thing I knew, we were speed flying through the clouds. I could feel the strong wind against my face as we pretty much flew across the universe. Like we were literally flying around the globe, I could see it in front of me..

I couldn't help but scream even if I knew she was holding me tight.

"Don't let go, Jennie!" she instructed as she felt my body tense up in panic.

"I need to! Lisa, we need to go down!" I shouted. "This is too much. I think I'm about to throw up."

"You can't let go of my hand," she said, holding my hand tightly.

I know I was supposed to follow her, but I didn't. I wiggled my hand out of her grip and felt myself falling down to the ground. The sound of Lisa's scream was heard even ten feet below.

I landed on some seashore with a loud thud, but surprisingly, I wasn't hurt.

"What the hell were you thinking?" Lisa shrieked shortly after she landed. "Are you insane? You could've killed yourself!"

"I am clearly fine, Lisa," I said, brushing sand off my clothes and skin. "And to answer your question, yes I am insane. Very."

"What's up with your mood today, anyway?" Lisa muttered, following me as I tried to find my way out of the beach.

"You know what Lisa? I was actually perfectly fine before you just randomly showed up in my life," I spat out. "Yeah, my life wasn't that exciting but at least I knew exactly what was going on."

"Good for you," she mumbled. "Because I, on the other hand, have no idea what's going on with you right now."

I threw my hands up in frustration. "I wish I did, too! You just had to come and ruin everything for me, huh? I just had to be stupid enough to fall in-love with someone who doesn't even exist. I tried to fight it, I really did, but every moment I spend with you just makes me fall even deeper and now I'm stuck in this situation that I can't even fix!"

"Are you going to bring this up all the damn time, Jennie?" she retorted. "Do you have any idea how much it hurts every time you tell me that I'm not real? That I don't exist? Because I know how I feel for you, and I know for a fact that it's real."

"But I was already okay!" I cried. "I wouldn't even be surprised if my boyfriend is thinking of ways to leave me now because – "

"Woah. Your boyfriend?" she repeated in shock. "You told me you don't have a boyfriend."

"Here in this world, I have girlfriend and it's you. But in real life, I have boyfriend too and unfortunately for you his name isn't Lisa." Thats a lie. Im not sure if Kai was syill my boyfriend but, who cares, she has no idea.

Lisa ran her fingers through her hair and sighed. "Jennie, I wish I could help you with this. I really wish. But I don't know how else to convince you that I'm real. If you think it's driving you insane, well guess what, I'm going insane too."

"The only way you can actually help me is by leaving me alone," I said, feeling like I was dying deep inside.

"Jennie..."

"As much as I love living in my dreams, I have to focus in my reality because that's what I actually have. In fact, I could've died the moment I fell from the sky and it wouldn't matter because it's not even real."

"Don't do this," Lisa's lower lip started to tremble. "Don't lie to me or to yourself. You love me and I know you do."

"Lisa. . . . "

"No, you don't get it," she interrupted. "Do you even know why you're in this situation right now? It's because you chose to be in it. If I was really just a dream, you could've just easily gotten rid of me. But no, I'm still here. Why? Because this is how it's supposed to be. It's just a matter of perspective."

"You're not even making any sense!" I started to raise my voice. "I got the message already, Lisa. The message is that I'm supposed to live out of the four walls that I've surrounded myself with. I'm supposed to start living my dreams and doing what I want and making the most of my life. I get it now. Your job is done. I need to start working on my life now, and make it as amazing as my dreams. But that won't happen if I keep getting caught in between all this. I need to let go of you."

"So you're breaking up with me," she murmured. "That's just how this is going to end."

"I have a boyfriend," I whispered, the words barely coming out of my mouth. "That's the truth. It doesn't matter if I don't have him here."

"Stop saying that, please," she begged, burying her face in her hands. I could already hear her crying and it was killing me.

I walked up to her and pulled her hands off her face. When she looked up, her eyes were red and there were tears uncontrollably streaming down her cheeks. With that, I instantly felt tears brim in my own eyes.

"Lisa, listen," I said, wiping off her tears with my thumb. "Maybe this isn't our final goodbye. Maybe, in another world, in another life, we can be together again. Just not here and now... because it won't lead to anything."

"But I don't w-want to say goodbye," she stuttered, biting her lip while trying not to cry even more. "I love you so much, Jennie. I love you more than anything in this world."

"I love you too," I sniffled. "You have no idea how much I love you. But right now, I know this is what's best."

I leaned forward and softly brought my lips to her. Her hands wrapped around my back, pulling me closer. I found myself crying intensely while kissing her, knowing that there was a chance that this was going to be the last time I will be kissing her. The last time I will ever smell her beautiful scent. The last time I will ever look into her captivating eyes, and the last time I will ever feel her warm embrace.

"You don't have to do this," she whispered into the kiss.

"I would sleep forever if it meant spending the rest of my life with you," I murmured, cupping her cheeks in my hands. "But I can't."

"Tell me what I need to do, Jennie. Tell me and I will do it," she said.

"Join me in reality," I smiled weakly. "Because that's the only way we can ever be together."

"But Jennie, this is our reality."

"It's only yours," I tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear. "Not mine. Thank you for allowing me to live in your world for a while. Trust me when I say that the best moments I've had in my life were the moments I've spent with you."

"Jennie, please..."

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes tightly. "I'm sorry."

Wake up. Wake up. Please just wake up.

"Jennie!"

"Good-bye Lisa," I whispered for the last time, feeling my heart break in two as I slowly snapped back into the real world.