2 helpless (2nd part )

I was about to cry very loudly but then suddenly I thought that I am 30 years old, so crying just because my hand hit on something, it would be totally embarrassing, and already I was totally embarrassed because of wetting my bed. On top of that when I tried to move my other hand so that I can massage the area which was hurting so that that pain can subside ( according to gateway theory, which will be explained in near future ), but I was unable to do it. I was able to lift my arm up to the level of the shoulder, and that also only for short duration after that it falls automatically as if the force of gravity has been increased. Being a 1st-year medical student I diagnosed myself as suffering from a milder form of paralysis.

I was scared, embarrassed, ashamed, confused, and shocked.

Now I was so tired that I just wanted to sleep, which was my only hope, I thought that once I sleep all this confusion and pain will disappear but yet I was worried about the fact that my pant and bed was wet. After some time I don't know what happened but suddenly I felt that my brain had shut off all the connections with the external environment, then everything went blank _________________

(what happens next? well, see you in the next chapter )