Many more tries

So time went on, i don t know how much it passed, i had tried everything but nothing worked.

"Should i just kill my self?" i was thinking " what if the poisoned guy exit after he died?" the loneliness must have got to my head, i need to stay calm and think clearly, think, think, think

FUCK IT

I then started concentrating on my breath to calm me down.

Focus +0,1

??? a hidden stat?? i continued meditating. Focus +0,1 +0,1... until it reached 1.5.

System new ability acquired: Mana recognition

And then i could feel it, it was all around me , it was in me or better it was everything and everything was mana

I started another round of experiments: i tried touching it, then some physical positions , i tried to exert my self to the utmost in training until i passed out; I could actually see the mana entering my body through the air and strengthening my muscles, it wasn't something special, it was the natural process everyone went through, just that no one ever realised it

Strength +0,1, Resilience +0,1

I actually did it, i surpassed my limits and got rewarded, in order to break a limit i have to break it, no magic trick, what i already did then i could do it easier

But no matter what i was still there.

"Abracadabra, mana go! , fire arrow", nothing ... now i felt silly... it didn't respond to my voice, i started visualise a fire slowly growing into my hand but nope, than wind, telechinesis on myself, tried focusing on temperature, on simply moving the mana but i couldn't quite grasp it, it was there but every time i tried to move it i felt it was too intangible; as my attempts went on and on this feeling of intangibility lessened a bit

I just stayed with the mana, my full focus on it and after some time: focus +0,1

i was too tired so i instantly fell asleep

i was dreaming, not quite self conscious but enough to remember I could see mana, i could do whatever i wanted with it, i was an old magician healing some poor souls in a court and other things i forgot

i am awake now, i cut myself, just bit my thumb, maybe a little too much it started bleeding

I remembered the feeling of my dream, i felt the healing entering my body , it was just a feeling, i couldn't cure myself and it healed naturally, after a lot of time, with scabs and everything

Self regeneration +0,1. Self regeneration 1,1.

The only stats i could see at the beginning were strength vitality mana and gene, the others appeared just as i improved or discovered them, there wasn't a status window or something, i just know them

U can imagine what i did after: i tore my skin in many place with teeth, mostly hands and arms, i couldn't get anywhere else, i am not that twistable

I scratched my legs, DAMN, it hurt

Self regeneration 1.2 1.3

As my wound got deeper so my stats increased but after 1.5 stopped, i bit my finger again, it stopped bleeding and healed a bit faster , around 1/3 faster, wasn't sure though but i felt it was faster

I kept meditating on mana for a month: it went to 1,7after a day, to 1.8 after 3 days than 7 days and i finally reached 2 focus after 15

I could actually move mana if i concentrate enough, it was just really slow, it took me too much time but i kept getting stronger and stronger

At the beginning it was just like i was only imagining to move it (0,1 mana) but than i could feel a light breeze (0,3) , at 0.5 i could directly moving the air

I spit and tried to move it, it was way harder but I gradually reached 1

I focused on speed until i reached 1.5 mana, it took a really long time, my understanding of it grew accordingly, i could know each and every one of my hairs without seeing them , they were there, my awareness improved quite a lot