48 no control

This chapter is (R-18)

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✨Andi ✨

Yuri was fuming, this is why we kept Alex's situation from him. Me being stupid, told him how I feel about him last night. Stupid ecstasy and that stupid Doctor and those stupid Sanchez's men and stupid me!

I hate myself for being honest when I'm high. Why can't I just be reckless or be the grim reaper when I'm stoned instead of being damn fúcking honest.

Alex knows about my love-hate relationship with his brother. He doesn't approve of me being this cruel to Yuri but hey, suck it up Laskin ghost. He played along when I flirted with him, there was nothing he could do but to play along though. In the ensemble, you owe that someone who saved you your entire fúcking life. In my case, it was Isiah and Uno and in Alex's, it was me he owes.

I never wanted to use him that way, but I had to push Yuri away from me. Jealousy and hate are the only way I can think of for him to stay away. Isiah might have told him already about the new and old Hierarchy. If somehow he digs deeper, he would find himself tangled in that messy history which will consume him. He won't get away from it; he falls deeper for me.

Isiah and Yuri will be staying with Alex for a few days while Uno is cleaning Alo for bugs. I have the house all to myself.

After getting wasted in the pub, I took a cab and went home and got into a warm shower. It relaxes my mind knowing that I have the place all to myself, even for just a few nights. The warm shower I had made me hungry. Wrapping a towel around my body, I walked downstairs to the kitchen and found a few green apples inside the fridge. I took one and grabbed a big bite on it, the apple almost fell from my mouth when I saw Yuri leaning on the kitchen door frame.

I did not feel or hear him walk in and the fact that he was shirtless and that sweatpants of his hang dangerously low on his waist made me swallow hard. Damn those biceps and body of his, such a toned body that is drool-worthy. Shít, I was only wearing a towel and nothing more. His eyes shamelessly feasted my half-naked state before a smirk crawled on his face.

He strode towards me like a lion taunting its prey. Slowly, taking his time gawking. He was now standing too close to my face, his minty aftershave invading my senses. He gripped the fridge handle before opening it and took an orange juice for himself. My foot was glued to the floor as I watched his Adam's apple bobbed up and down as he gulped the juice liquid. He licked his lips off of some drops which spilled in his pinkish lips, his green glassy orbs locked in mine. I bit my lip to stop myself from moaning at the sight of this God in front of me.

So much for self-control and so much for pushing him away.

The next thing I knew, his lips were on mine, his hands tangled in my wet hair, my legs wrapped around his waist and my fingers fisted his soft dark locks. He gripped my bum and placed me on the kitchen counter, our lips molded like a puzzle piece missing each other for such a long time, finally finding its match. The arousal building on the pit of my stomach tightened when Yuri pushed his tongue deep inside my mouth. Massaging mine in a very, very sensual way that had me moaning out loud.

His hands pulled the towel away from my body, my only defense against this cold weather was now gone replaced by the heat radiating from the man who holds me intimately close to his body. I let my hand feel every toned muscle in his shoulders, chest, and abs. Damn this man is lean. I tasted him before and the urge to taste him again was making my mind go wild.

''Yuri..." I moaned when he let go of my lips only to plant wet kisses on my neck. His hands kneading both of my breast, his thumb and forefinger teasing my already erected buds. A yelp escaped me when I felt his fingers slide inside me without warning, plunging them deep in and out, violating me and the sad part was, I was enjoying every thrust of his fingers. I pushed my breast deeper into his mouth when he sucked on my erected buds, my hips meeting his every push and pull in a slow rhythm. He was letting me climb a high only he can give me. That peak I visited once with his mouth and fingers. I know only Yuri can take me there.

His fingers curled, hitting that spot only he could find. It was foreign to me, I didn't know I even have it inside me. I was screaming his name, I was wanton for his tantalizing touch and I enjoyed every second of this high he gave me.

"Yuri... faster..." I begged but he merely smiled on my skin. The smile of a devil in disguise. He didn't give me what I wanted, instead he kept his slow torturous phase. "Please..." only this man can make me beg for this.

''No butterfly" I whined when he stopped what he was doing altogether. "You need to learn not to make me jealous or you'll never have me pleasuring you again."

I was gasping for air, the heat in my skin was still burning and my face contorted with confusion. What the hell was he talking about? "Don't stop."

He smirked. "Learn from your mistake, babochka."

''What?'' knowing that the smirk on his face was fùcking annoying, I wanted to wipe it out with a fùcking lawnmower. "Fùck you, Laskin." I hopped out of the counter, hot and bothered, fuming with anger and humiliation as I slammed the door of my room. Cold shower was not fucking helping me! He did this to me? How dare that man!

The shower wall shattered to pieces when I punched it too many times that my hands bleed. I let the water calm me, no one had ever humiliated me like that in my entire life.

''Angel'' I heard Yuri speak inside my shower.

''Go away before I rip your head off" I warned. Instead of following my will, I felt his hands around my waist, drawing sweet circles on my stomach. ''Not now Yuri. Just go."

"No" he pressed his body on my back and damn, he was naked and hard. "Alex told me you and him weren't even a thing. Why make me jealous like that babochka?"

''I can't be with you, Yuri" he spun me around but I closed my eyes, not wanting him to see how I hate doing this to him. How pushing him away was hurting me like a double-sided dagger.

''Why?'' he tilted my chin but my eyes remained shut. "I only want you, Andi, no one else."

Fúck control.

Fúck being righteous.

Fúck doing the right thing.

I'll do Yuri and I need him now.

''Make love to me" I whispered and as soon as the words left my mouth, I instantly regretted them.

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