9 8: His regret
"Dad, where are you going " A boy aged 7 cried as he tugged on his father's pants
"Get of me" the father almost kicked his son off him
"Dad, are you leaving us? Why?" The son was mature to understand what a luggage could mean
"Leave me alone"
"Dad, I am sorry, I will try to get full marks, please, dad don't leave us....." The child cried but to no avail
"I found my fated mate, I don't what to be with your mother anymore" the father said leaving
The child did not understand the concept of fated pair, but swore that he would never let his life be controlled by fated pair or what not......
This was Mew's childhood
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Age 10, he was diagnosed as an alpha, the age where he came to know the concept of second gender, fated pair and soul mates.... He would never let his life be controlled like his father, who threw his mother to fend for herself alone with a young child
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Years later, he built his empire and controlled the underworld, no one could go against him, not even the president.....
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A fight had broken out in front of his club, a usual scene that he wold never interfere in, he didn't need to...he didn't care, but this time there was something different. It was like the person being attacked was pulling him towards himself, like a silent plea for help and by the time he realized what had happened he had already protected this soul and sent him to the hospital to get treated....."soulmate" that is when he realized......
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He knew that his soulmate worked at his cáfe, so he decided to pay him a visit with his friends under the pretense of their regular meeting. The cáfe was flooded with his scent, he had the most difficulty controlling especially when he was this close to him. Had he being alone, he would have ravished this poor soul and left him alone.........
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He got him to work with him in his office...his scent was comforting, a scent that would hold his anger within, so he wouldn't have anger burst....but that was not enough to claim him as a mate
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How could he look stunning in a suit, Mew thought as Gulf sat beside him in the car as they headed to the party, his scent today was stronger than before.....
Mew knew that Gulf's heat had some, so he stayed away from Gulf as he saw Team and Tay take care of him...he knew if he was near Gulf he would mark him.....but when he headed to his hotel room, he couldn't control himself..the scent pulled him like a candy in front of the kid....he took it and devoured it but when he realized what he had done he scratched it off....he didn't want a bond, he had made that clear
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Months later Gulf was not extruding his pheromone like normal, Mew was intrigued, did Gulf finally move on...now he didn't have to worry about their bond, but what was the queasy feeling Mew was getting? Why was he feeling unsettled? Why was he getting upset? He was the one who rejected him? So why?
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Standing on the stage he made the biggest announcement in front of the world, he had called upon Puifai, while he laughed at how he had tackled destiny and made a fool out of destiny...fuck destiny... All this to prove he was right....
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"Gulf, the investigator has confirmed" Mild said to him..and he had lost all sanity, he knew that soulmate or not, he needed answer. But every word out of Gulf's mouth was not the answer he wanted to hear. Gulf just needed to confess that he was the one, he would not have hurt him at all. But why was he even with the Vachirawit's son...why him? Anyone but him? Why my mortal enemy? Why Gulf? why?
The odd thing was that Gulf was protecting his abdomen, did they sleep together already? Was Gulf carrying his child? Tay's entrance confirmed that he was pregnant....... By why did he say "His"? How could they be mine? No way....if they thought they could escape they were wrong...but they did
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Summoning Tay was useless, he didn't give him any information but one thing was clear Gulf was pregnant but whose? They could be mine.....we did sleep after the party, I needed confirmation but none of my subordinates were helping me...
Weeks later, I was sure Gulf would be back to work, he has to , I haven't given him off but there was no sign of him so I called Mild
"Where is Gulf?"
"Why do you wanna know? Focus on Puifai" Mild said making faces at me
"Mild, behave, where is he?"
"He got his contract terminated" Mild said
"But I didn't approve it"
"I did, do you even know what you did to him..."
"He was the one who..."
"He kissed the angels of death and came back, Mew, fucking angels of death.....you should be thankful that the CID is not investigating the case because Gulf kept his mouth shut or else you would be in for attempted murder of four people" Mild mumbles the last few words
"What did you say?" Mew didn't catch the last words
"Nothing, where is Puifai" Mild said trying to distract Mew from Gulf
"I don't know" Mew dismissed the idea and continued working
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Weeks later Mew had difficulty sleeping due to his repeated nightmare especially the day his father left them for his fated pair.....
He decided to call Tay to help him out....
"I was busy today, the obstetrician are going to kill me" Tay said shaking his head
"Did you get me meds for my headache"
"Are you having your nightmares again?"
Mew said nothing, Tay was the only one who knew about Mew's past...
"Let me check for any fever as well" Tay said as he placed the thermometer in Mew's mouth "Normal"
"Why do you have his scent all over you?" Mew asked startling Tay
"Whose scent?" Tay played innocent
"Gulf, its like his pheromones mixed with..... unknown scents" Mew said twitching his nose
"You are going crazy, Mew" Tay couldn't believe it "When he was close to you, you pushed him away, now that he is away, you actually want him" Tay didn't want to tell Mew he was with Gulf just moments before....all hell would break loose
Tay put Mew to sleep and left his house
"Gulf were are you going" Mew called out behind a figure walking away from his
"Out of your life, you have Puifai..take care of her"
"Gulf" Mew said as he walked towards Gulf and held his hand but he felt it wet so he looked down and saw blood on it and then he looked up to see Gulf with the knife marks he had made.....
"Nooooooooooo" Mew woke up from his dreams as he looked around, he was in his house and he was sweating like crazy...
He went to the kitchen to drink some water and went back to his bed... he looked over and saw his prescription that Tay had left him, he took those and tried to sleep..but he had difficulty sleepy..Gulf's face kept reappearing in front of him....
"Daddy, where are going " a child cried
"Daddy, don't hurt us....."
"Dad, don't hurt mommy" the child cried as Mew walked towards the child with a knife in his hand, who was the mother and child??, why was he hurting them??, Mew turned the mother who was shielding the child only to be face with a bloody Gulf
Mew woke up again from the dream, he had never had such a dream after he had killed other people so why was Gulf hurting him so much......
He needed to meet Gulf .... He wanted to see him....he wanted to talk to him.....but why?
Mild, Llong, Bosser, Tar and neither Tum where helping him find where Gulf .... And asking Tay was useless. He alone has only a few that he could work with but they were hopeless....
Months went by and he was getting tired of Puifai, but because he had declared to the world, he kept the façade in front of the people....
His problem started when he started seeing Gulf in everything, in the shops he visited, in the café, in his office, every single place, he was hallucinating like crazy but his friends decided to not help at all.....they felt like he deserved this....this was retribution for what he did to Gulf
Years later Mew had exhausted his resources, his nightmares where getting vivid, his hallucination was disturbing his work life, he almost had an accident in his car, when he hallucinated that Gulf was standing in the middle of the road and he swiveled his car around to not hit him, hitting another car in the process. He became merciless, his killing spree increased... he grew weak....
"Tay, where is he?" Mew said one day "Why do I keep seeing him, like he is always next to me but he is always dripping in blood..is he even alive?"
"Go to sleep, Mew, you are tired" Tay said as he told Mew to sleep...he knew Mew was trying to find Gulf but Gulf didn't want to meet him... but he also knew that Gulf ever so often missed Mew when he looked at his kids, Mew's face was evident....why was soulmate such a scary thing??
Should he give them a chance to meet? Maybe Mew could make amends, maybe Gulf could forgive him.....Maybe...that's all Tay wished for his best friend and his mate
What better day than his own baby shower Tay thought as he invited Mew and Mild to it...this was all his plan...
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Mew rang Tay's door bell and a tiny baby girl opened the door and the moment they made eye contact she growled at him...why?
Her face was very familiar, Mew thought, how could he forget his face.....she had Gulf's face.....no one needed to tell him whose kids it was, it was clear
Two of the three boys at the party were the exact copy of Mew, Mew just couldn't believe it....triplets, Gulf gave birth to three kids, while he was with Puifai.......why did he not tell him?
The discussion with Gulf didn't go as he had planned, Gulf had changed, when did he grow so strong and confident????
But now that he was sure they were his kids he wanted to be part of their lives...he didn't want to repeat the same mistake his father did but what he couldn't believe was that the kids declared that their father was "DEAD"...was he not their father?
Why was Gulf feeding them with lies?? Wasn't he all well and alive? If he wanted he could take it court but he didn't want to use anymore extreme measures with Gulf, he just wanted Gulf back.....he wanted to actively pursue him, he had finally found them after 6 years ....he was ready to make amends
But Gulf was not ready to make the amends, he was too tired, he didn't want Mew in his life ever again........if he was not there when he wanted him, he better not be even close to him when he didn't want to see him...
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