13 Maybe,just maybe!

I wanted to end my life with her. I don't know what to do and I am suffering very much. I don't know why I love her so much then others and care about her so much. Even though I don't know what to think I have so many ways but I don't know what can I do. I feel like I am regretting back from her. But what to do until the exam is not over then I can't do anything for her. I wish, my wish could come true. When I was in the first entry I used to dream every day "please God I wanted a newcomer and like her. But that wish came true I was so happy that I remember again. I finally forget. I am so pleased for her study that I disturb her. I wish after the exam is over I wanted to rebuild that love again but I don't know she will accept it or reject it. I am so mad about this thing. And I don't feel like doing anything good since from that day. I wish I would, the dreams come true.