17 Knowing the truth

Today I ask. That doesn't mean that I ask directly with my mouth I can't because I don't want to disturb her so I gave her a letter instead. Then in that, I ask her that "Do you still love Mathew" then she said "no" and I ask these question that" Did you break with because of Mathew" then said "no". I wrote in the letter that if you tell me to lie your future life will be not good and if tell the truth I will angry or blame. And in the letter I wrote that don't get angry and please forgive for asking these kinds of questions to you so I am sorry for this. But I don't still believe her friend Sukanya that the girl tough me yesterday I still can't believe. I think that she is joking or trying to make me hate her. If it was also true that she didn't love then I will never hate I will still love her to end of my life. I don't know what to do in front of her these days also and I am still nervous and shy. I don't why I am feeling this kind of things. I really don't know what to I used to ask myself that Bashika will accept me or not after the exam is over. This thing disturbs me every day and everywhere.