12 Can't stop my feeling

Every day I used to think about her but pretending not to talk or look at her. And I'm having a problem in my heart. Before, my heart used to beat normal after breaking up my heart beat faster than I could feel that I can die. Without her, I don't what to do. And I am so restless. When I used to think about her I felt like crying very much that I can't stop my tears. I used to think that I have lost everything that I have own in her life. But I don't want to disturb her until the exam is over. And after finishing our exam I wanted to rebuild that love again. I hate these feelings of mine, feelings that can't be express to her. I wish I could tell her everything, but I stopped talking to her since that day. I have a feeling she still wants me, can we rebuild our love again? Can we ever start over? I wish I could ask her these questions. She's gone, everything changed.