LUV ILLUSION BREAKS EVERYTHING

2015-

I was B.tech harami student..

Was trying ti find some1 over fb. Jo mile use request bhjo..

Bs apne bhi kuch usool the..

Sidhi sadhi ldkiyo ko ni fasana..bs harami panti krna..pr ek glti kr di.

Ek sidhi ldki ko rqst bhj di..

July2015

I am thankful to the day..she accepted my friend request...i knw upr to bol rha tha glti ho gyi ab thnqful..kya kru pyr cheez hi esi h..

She was my junior, I found her over fb in frnds suggestion nd sent her friend request..

A grl to whome I can't explain in words but I can bet that I was the one knowing her the most.. More then herself..

I don't have words to explaib her but baat kr k kuch khas lga..kuch positive vibes..

Although she was a grl with negative attitude, demotivated nd many more but i had positive vibes from her..

I use to flrt she use to laugh, we use to have alot of fun being just friend..

A day came..

She fell for me..

Yes..

Its dec 2015, she fell for me nd she proposed me indirectly..She tested me thru her friend nd after somewhat around 7days she confessed that she is her friend nd she testing me.. I asked her why u did that..she said U eill not understand why grl do this..I got her proposal..

Till the tym we ws just friend so i never told her that m comited..

But that day I told her that am comited...

After that she was sorry to me nd we decided to be best friend..

We became close..

Day soon came...

June 2016 I got breaked up..

Nd it was her turn now..

Yup..after that breakup I decided to not to start with any 1 nd was just friend with her..

But due to my breakup we get chance to come more closer..I confessed her all my past secrets bcz we was best friends nd best friends se kuch ni chupate..all my ex..all my haramipanti everythng she was knwn with..nd still she never judge me...

I found her mature nd understanding grl..

With time we came more closer nd my lrvel of flrtng ws extending day by day..

Uski flngs mere liye ab bhi whi thi..or mere andr kuch kuch flng develop ho rhi thi..being bestiee hum ese baat krne lge the jaise we are comited..such khu to mere dil me uske liye pyr jag gya tha..It took 1year

Nd day came we got comited..Shockingly It was not a proposal from any1..

Our commitment was without proposal..

The same day we had met, nd we went gurudware together..nd I asked god for permanent happiness for her..chahe temprory sadness mil jaye..pr temporary happiness dekr humesha ka dukh ni..

Nd dat day her brother asked her about me..

She asked me what should I say..nd I told her k tell him..he is my bf..we luv each other..

She did same..fr bhai wala thoda scene hua pr bhabhi ne bhai ko smja liya or bhai me ha kr di..her happiness that day ws to extent me yaad krta hu meri anakho me aasu ajate h..I wish she could always stay that happy..

But ye temporary happiness thi..uske bhai ne kha baat bnd kr de abhi..baad me tym pr sochenge..

Ab hume decide krna tha what to do..

We decided to continue oyr relation now..

Our mistake..In the illusion of luv we breaked our frndship...

A year spent well..

Koi ladai ni..it ws lyk we are too perfect for each other lyk radha krishna..pr meri ek problem h..njr jaldi lgti h

She got selected in CU for her m.sc

My neagtive vibes from CU..

Change in her nature..

Destoryed everythng..

We spent approx 10month fighting with each other..multiple breakups nd patchups..

We was not suppose to over this way..

Our luv nd confidence for each other that yes he/she is one for me..It got diminishes nd we was that we are not for each other..

Somehw we managed..till may

But now her dreams..her desire after marriage...Something i cnt fulfil..

It's tym to break..for my family..

I quit..

I am sorry..

I m quiting of our relation..not of our luv..

It will be always alive..

May be I will not be alive after this..but still I choose something nd did something for my family..

I will die happily..