1 Dreamlike Reality

Growing old with the person I love the most, there is no greater bliss in the world that could describe how I feel. there were a lot of downs, but its a fulfilling life. Waking up and staring at my beloved wrinkly face, him sataring at me and smiling lovingly, if there is life after death, my soul will seek yours through all eternity.

Another day passes, day and night enterchange so fast and time seems to be irrelevant when you grow old. I was lying beside my husband and thinking about how tomorrow would pass not noticing how I fell asleep.

I awoke feeling refreshed and energetic, which is very different from my lethargic self, due to old age. Looking at my side and not seeing my husband, I panicked and failed to readily notice my surrounding. I calmed myself down, then started seeing I was in a different place, but a not unfamiliar place. If I recall correctly, the place I'm at is our old house, I was sleeping on a bed on the floor. I stood up and looked on the bed beside me, and there I saw my mother sleeping. I have not seen my mother for a long time, I was happy but at the same time confused, Am I in a dream, is the past I'm remembering  a dream or did I travel back in time?, but everything feels so real. Before I could think further, my mother woke up and stared at me, surprised at how I was standing just staring at her. I snapped out of my stupor and greeted her "good morning", she still seemed doubtful, but greeted me back and started standing up. She said she was going to prepare breakfast cause I'll be going to school and told me to take a bath while she prepares the food. I was looking at my surrounding and looking for clues of what year it is. I saw my school bag and started rummaging, I saw books belonging to Third year Highschool students. My mother urged me again to take a bath, I might be late at the pace I'm moving. I went to the bathroom and remembered to do the most cliche thing to check if I'm in a dream, I pinched my face, it hurt, I didn't stop slapped my face, it hurt. Did I really travel back in time? I heard my mom shout telling me I'm taking a long time bathing. I bathe and sat at the table, I ate and drank milk. then hesitantly went to school. I came a bit early, looking at the place where I studied during Highschool, I couldn't help but reminisce. I came to when someone bump into me, I looked at him and recognized him as my first boyfriend, Ryan. He stared at me and started a conversation. He asked me "Why didn't you reply at my message?" I answered him with an excuse"I woke up late and was rushing to come to school, I did not have time to look at my phone. "  I was so flustered, I forgot that I alreday have a phone during this time, I could have easily checked the date and surmised the situation in school if I read the my messages. How could I forget such important details. I was deep in thought and forgot that Ryan was still with me. He suddenly blocked my way, and now its my turn to bump into him, he stared at me and asked "Are you giving me the cold shoulder? was I too pushy last night? I didn't mean to rush you,   if your not ready to be in a relationship, I'll wait til' your ready" such romantic words coming from a child, I was holding myself back from laughing. Ryan my first boyfriend, my first love and my first heartbreak. I'm still unsure if I'm in a dream, but things are unfolding like the past I remembered, questions arise one after another, but first I have to get through this day and think of everything later. I don't if it was because I think I have lived my life once, such romantic words coming from someone who might have broke my heart makes me uncomfortable and disgusted. I looked at him and said "let's talk about it later, we should settle our bags first", Ryan was about to say something when someone appeared between us, held my hand then looked at Ryan and said we're going to be late if we keep dilly dallying and dragged me to enter the gate. It was my bestfriend, Reista, she was dragging me because the bell for morning assembly was going to ring and I'm still carrying my bag. We went up to our classroom, I looked at her and said "Thank you" she looked confused, and said "you should put your bag down first, it looks heavy", I couldn't remember where my chair was, I kept looking left and right looking for clues as to where my chair was, then Reista removed my bag and put it on a chair. She looked at me and laughed "Did you not know where your seat is? you keep looking flustered, are you okay? you don't seem sick to me." in a sarcastic tone. I looked at her and laughed, then said "I was only pretending to not know, who knew you'd be helping me put my bag down" she gave me an eyeroll and we went down to the assembly hall. Looking at the rows of student, and at my classmates very familiar faces, I can't help but feel like this is all real. But why did I dream about having a similar life and it feels so real? I can recall all the joys and hardships I had in the dream, and it amkes me have a sense of deja vu. I lined up, sang the National anthem, listened to the Principals announcement then returned to class after the morning assembly. I sat at my chair and looked at the board, the date was written on the top right corner "July 19, 20X7".