13 Confession (1)

After what Kyle told me last week, I didn't know how to react when I'm around him. I told Jill what happened, "WHATTT?!?" she said it so loud that the whole cafeteria was staring at us. She suddenly sits down and whispered, "so do you like him?" I looked at her, "Well, it's complicated. He's nice, but also cold at the same time. I do have feelings for him, but I'm not sure if that's love or what." I gave Jill a look and she snapped at me. "Do you get jealous when he's around girls? Do you miss him when he's not around? Do you think of him everyday?" as Jill is saying all these things, I starts to think if I have any of those. Then suddenly, Jill tugged on my shirt. "Look, it's Kyle and Gina," Jill pointed them out to me as they are walking right next to each other and talking.

For some reason my heart starts to ache and my fist are clenched together. "Are you okay? Are you feeling sick?" as Jill touched my forehead. I told her that I'm fine and walk out the cafeteria. On the way out, Kyle saw Lilian walking out, but didn't go after her.

Lilian walked out the cafeteria and started to walk back to the classroom.

'Such a lair. Said you love me, but you're laughing and talking with another girl already.' I thought anxiously to myself. My brain suddenly flashed back to what Jill asked me in the cafeteria before. 'Am I jealous?' as I thought to myself and I could feel my heart aching. 'How could I fall in love with him,' as I try to brush away this thought.

The day went by smoothly and I try to not show my emotions to Kyle. I pretty ignored him the whole day. When the bell rings, Kyle was the first one to rush out the classroom door. 'Wow, now he doesn't even want to see me too.' as I start to pack my stuff and head out the classroom. While walking towards the front exit, I saw Kyle in front of a classroom. 'Didn't he leave already," as I thought to myself. I decided to walk closer and saw Gina in front of him. Gina was holding his hand, but I couldn't hear what they're saying. For some reason I feel anger and sadness at the same time.

I stood at the corner and saw them chatting for a really long time." HEYY, LILIAN WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" My heart jumped and realized it was Jill. I turned back around and saw Kyle and Gina looking at us. "Uh-oh, I'm doomed." as I try to leave, Kyle called out my name.