Love or Lust (Christmas romance)

"ahhh!" I screamed before pushing him off the bed. With my heart racing, I clutched my white pillow to my chest even though I was not naked. White pillow? I don't own anything white for obvious reasons. " Ughh! You're more violent when you're awake." My idiot of a cousin said as he tried massaging his back. " What are you doing in my bed?" I yelled at him. I know he is family but he is a guy. And I don't like having guys this close to me, alone, in my room. " In your bed?" he scoffed before adding " check again Kelly." It was then I noticed I was not in my bed, not in my grandma's, not even in my dad's. It was... Ben's. No no no! Please don't tell me I.... " Yeah. You sleepwalked to my room" he must have guessed my thoughts when he saw the horrified expression I had on my face. " I don't sleepwalk." I said stubbornly. I know I did but I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of admitting. The thing was... I started sleepwalking after he relocated to UK. I would always find myself in his room in the morning whenever I stayed at grandma's house. I guessed I missed him that much. But now he is here, I don't understand how I ever missed him. He took off his T-shirt. Showing off his drool - worthy body. Instead of finding my way out, what do you think I did? I sat down rooted to the bed, staring at his body. What broke the trance was the cocky smirk on his face. Trust me. When a guy is cute and he doesn't know, that's very adorable. But when he looks good and he knows, that is the spelling of danger. *** Christmas is near! Who is excited? Everyone but Kelechi. After a break up, Christmas excitement is not what she needs. Definitely not her entire dysfunctional family in one place. Especially not her cousin Ben who she is attracted to. Quick question: When you are attracted to your cousin, is it love or lust?