19,Truth is nightmare dressed like daydream

Mayank and my bond was getting stronger day by day.but i was still not feeling anything like that special the way he feels for me.but with harshil it was getting more effective the way he talk with me full day and night.send gifts.he was really doing efforts.i know he likes me.may be he doesn't know or he doesn't want to admit.because i told him about mayank.whatever the reason is.

Irony is two boys loves me and now i have to decide for whom i feel special.Deep down inside may be i know it was for harshil because after all he was crush.but I really had good time with mayank.his stupid,silly things give a reason to be with him.when i am with him I forgot people around me.he taught me so many things he made me happy again.he is the one who made me alive again otherwise i was just a machine who works.no emotion in me.he filled those emotions.i have to share with someone this mess is driving me crazy.

I think its time to tell mayank the truth before I could say anything he admired a new watch.i told him it was gifted by a friend."A friend really who"mayank asked.i told him how i met harshil,he visited city.everything.for a while he didn't spoke.i was scared.really I don't wanted to loose him.he was mad at me he just left me their alone.he run out of the cafe like he is running in olympic race.i was sitting there crying.i know it hurts.but I didn't expected this kind of reaction.he just yelled me.scolded me a lot.he felt betrayed by me.the person who loves most is hurt because of me.how ruthless i am became.he told a bitch with whom he wasted his feelings.he never want to see me again he said.

And i got call from kinjal.and it was a bloody dream.a nightmare.what the hell.am I daydreaming.meera to herself.i have to talk to mayank no matter what cost I cannot pretend like this so innocent in front of him.i know he will get angry but i will handle.