1 Changes Really

" Do you think you could help bring in some of these groceries JJ?"  Jason Yelled. Damn would think he'd be running out the door to help me bring in these bags since he'd be the first one eating every damn thing in sight he thought to himself, " JJ! Jason yelled again. "Damn man why are you doing all that damn yelling? Shit I'm coming...you act like the food is going somewhere. I'll bring it in a few minutes. My game is almost done!"

I couldn't do shit but stare at him when he said that. My oh-so fine boyfriend of 4 years was getting uglier and uglier by the minute to me. I stood looking at him for a few minutes, his deep dark sexy eyes with lashes men and women would kill for, perfect milk chocolate skin that coated his perfect 6'4 muscular frame to perfection and to top it off he had the nerve to have one deep dimple in his left cheek. I'll be the first one to tell you i fell for it all, hook line and sinker the day i laid eyes on his ass...but today? Four years later trust and believe I'm seeing clearly.

"What are you still looking at? I said I'd bring them in." JJ said and turned his back on me to finish his game.

"I'm not looking at anything. Ab·so·lute·ly nothing. " I replied and I meant that. Literally. I just took my ass back to the car to finish bringing in the rest of the groceries because by the time JJ made his way to bring it in, all my money would have been wasted. When I got back to the car my new neighbor was pulling in. I popped the trunk and started trying to gather as many bags as i could so i wouldn't have to make five trips back and forth to the car.

"Let me help you with some of those bags." My Neighbor said as he laughed at me. "You ain't slick! I see you trying to get all those at one time so you don't have to come back." He said. I had to laugh at myself that he spotted exactly what I was doing.

"I don't want to put you out, besides my boyfriend going to come and bring them in." I said.

"Don't worry about it. I Don't mind. Besides, I'm right here; and going the same way." He said.

"I'm so embarrassed to ask but…" I said.

"My name is Tyler." he said laughing at me" I knew you didn't remember it because you never say it when we pass in the hall. It's ok though i'm going to give you a pass, but after you have me breaking a sweat carrying all these bags in you have to remember my name, even if i did offer okay?" Tyler said laughing.

"You have a deal" I laughed and smiled. For the first time since he moved in I took a good long look at my new neighbor, I can't lie this white dude looked damn good.

Hell if ever i was trying to get me "Something New" on Tyler would be at the list. He looked a little taller than JJ I guess, about 6'6 and since it looked like he'd just come from the gym, I could see his muscular arms and legs. Hell when he was in front of me carrying the bags dare i say he had some ass too? A low cut tapered haircut nicely edged up all around with the most striking green eyes I'd ever seen. With a sexy mouth to boot. I know Mr. Tyler was giving these white people a run for their money for damn sure.

"Thank you so much for bringing these up for me. I really appreciate it TYLER." I said with emphasis so he knew I remembered his name.

"Anytime Jason." Tyler said as he sat all my bags in front of my door. I came in, put all the groceries up and straightened up the kitchen a bit. After I was done with that, I hopped in the shower and freshen myself up. Before I'd done the shopping I made a trip to the gym. I try to always workout three times a week because a brotha does like to eat! While I put lotion on my skin JJ came into my bedroom.

"You're so pretty baby." JJ said. 

"Thanks." I said turning my back on him. Typical JJ, always showing his face when all the work is done. I hope he doesn't have the nerve to walk behind this way thinking for a minute I'm about to get on my back, knees….or any other position for that matter!

"Baby let me get a little some of that before my man revon gets here." JJ asked laying back on the bed rubbing his hard dick. His ass must be turned on looking at me bringing in groceries. 

"What do you mean?" I said stepping into the panties of a matching red set, JJ's favorite color. "You told me it would be you and I the entire weekend JJ. "I said not even bothering to mask the attitude in my voice" I've looked forward to spending some real time with you. Other than when you decide to crawl in my bed late at night after spending all your time with everyone else." I said.

"Aww baby damn! It ain't even like that. We're going to turn a few corners and I'll be back before you know it." JJ's. Once those words came out of JJ's mouth it was as if I saw him, really saw him for the first time. All the broken dates, outright lies, conversations I had with him where the questions I asked regarding our relationship and where it was headed after four years, were all of a sudden crystal clear. "What did I really have to show for my four year relationship with JJ?" I asked myself. "Nothing with a promise of more nothing to come" my mind answered back without a moment's hesitation.

I stood there looking at him shaking my head, my disgust with the whole situation written all over my face. Not only with his actions, but mine for allowing myself to be treated this shitty for at least the last year.

"JJ, this is over. I don't want to argue about it. But this is a wrap. I'm done. You and I both know it. I feel I've been a good woman to you, I've done all I can to provide for your every need for the last four years. Sexually, mentally...Financially when you've needed it. Nothing ever seems to be enough for you to really want to be in this relationship with me. And I'm damn tired of being in a relationship alone." I said, looking JJ dead in his eyes as I said every word. It kills me to say the words I knew deep inside I should have said long ago. I knew I had to though. I already knew JJ never would. Hell why would he? He had it made in this relationship.

"Aww baby, You're always blowing some shit out of proportion! What the fuck are you tripping about now? JJ said, raising his voice." you...tired of ME? I get tired of your simple ass bullshit Jason. Always whining about nothing. Take your ass on then if you wanna go." JJ said.

"JJ that's just the type of mess I'm talking about! If you can't see all the problems I see with us especially this last year. I know more than ever we need to part ways. I love you and from day one I've been all in with you. Nothing but love and devotion towards you. Even when your ass didn't deserve it and I'm tired of it. Tired." I said looking at him doing my damnedest not to let a tear drop fall.

"Whatever Jason. I ain't never gonna lie and say you ain't one of the baddest bitch out here but your nagging ass ways gonna make me leave your ass for good one day." JJ said with the same old condescending tone I'd come used to hearing.

The same tone that tried to make me feel like I was being a nag for wanting him to keep a steady job, the same tone he used when he tried to convince me I just needed to accept the fact he would stand me up for dates with no notice. The same fucking tone that tried to make me feel like I was just being too "needy" when i wanted to be talked to and held after he fucked me. When he'd rather hop in the shower and hit the club with his boys. "You know what JJ? I won't wait for you to leave me for good one day. You can go on and get the fuck out now. BYE."