8 Broken Heart Hidden Love

"Mi Lord I am worried please let me help you if I can" I say almost begging him to let me in and help it breaks my heart to feel so useless. He stops dead in his tracks at my door and looks back to see if I am awake or asleep. I have woken up and look at him pleading with my eyes.

"There's nothing you can do to help a broken heart, my sweet Knittin. I have made some food for you it is in the kitchen." He says as he leaves the room.

"Yes, my Lord I am truly sorry I wish there was more I could do." I say in a whisper as he leaves the room.

I as I reach the kitchen I see it is a poached egg with some bacon and muffins. The food he left, it touches my heart that he thinks to feed the staff even when he is so hurt. Thank you I think to myself. I sit and eat thinking on what the lord had said I can't fix a broken heart. But what if learning how to love again can fix it? How could I get the lord to be open to the idea of love again. If he does not choose to marry soon then the council and the main Lord of Valeria will force him to.

I walk the halls making sure there is nothing to clean as I walk past the study I hear Terminus' word in the background and the music box.

"Shelly.... I miss you ... why did you have to do it ...." he says sadly and almost crying. Wondering what could have happened I feel a small pain in my heart for my lord's pain. I end up in the library sitting in a chair I start working on the needle point I have been working on.

"Knittin I'm back" Daisy says as she finds me in the library. She seems to be jumping with joy on the inside as it is written all over her face.

"Did you have fun?" I ask putting down my needle point and look up at her. I smile trying to hide the worry I feel.

"Oh yeah, it was great so many shops to look at also I did find some chickens and they will be put in the coop by the stable boy" she says full of excitement and a smile that seems to go from ear to ear. This is the first time I feel as though I am seeing the true Daisy. A carefree spirit, a young girl who enjoys shopping and looking around. I was right in thinking she is not made for hard labor.

"What did you do?" I ask smiling at her warmly trying to hide my inner thoughts and my own issues of worrying about the Lord.

"I was wandering around the town and there was this clothing store" Daisy says with a huge smile on her face. I can't get the lord's sad words out of my mind.

"Oh yes, I have been to that shop" I say to keep my mind off what I had heard but its so hard.

"It had a lot of beautiful dresses" she says she seems very happy about her time in town shopping.

"that's wonderful, I hope you found something you wanted" I say to her smiling

"There was this red dress, I really wanted but sadly I can't buy it" Daisy says with a frown on her face.

"Oh really, I see well maybe at some point let's go for a walk outside" I suggest as I need the fresh air any ways. in the garden, there is a small grave with sunflowers growing by the side of it.

"How was your day Knittin" Daisy asks truly interested

"It was good" is all I can tell her, I do not want to worry her about the Lord.

"Um Knittin" she says shyly

"Yes, what is it?" I ask her

"Is Lord Terminus fine" she says

"I am afraid that I am not sure he has not been himself and all I know is, he is hurt," I tell her the truth, as I am not sure what else to say or do, I can't keep hiding it from her.

"Can you do something I mean you know him better" she says worried.

"I have asked if I could, but he has said there is nothing, let's go have some tea inside." I tell her sadness heavy in my voice, I can tell Daisy is wondering what had hurt the lord like that. Walking back inside I see the Lord in the garden and asks

"Mi Lord would you care to join us for some rose tea?" I am not close, but I know he can hear me. Daisy glances at the lord.

"I'm afraid the time is not right, my little darlin'" he says looking at the grave he huffs. It's the time of her annual remembrance....

I stop and look at my lord as I feel he is very distracted because he did not answer me. I see him standing in a familiar spot of the garden. I start walking towards him to ask again if he would like to join us and to check on him. As we get closer and closer to the Lord the air begins to feel heavy with sadness. The air seems cold and almost as if you are being weighed down by it. I stop and start to say something but I stop myself as soon as I see the grave stone. So this is the reason for the sadness in the air.

Thinking on what that grave means tears start to fall from my eyes. When we lost Lady Shelly I had also lost my family. The duke had tried to turn me against my lord and even though he had my family I stayed loyal. My daughters were killed by the Duke and my husband by his wife. I always try to stay busy this time of year to not think about it too much. Lord Terminus seems to be thinking a lot about it this year and I am not sure why.