Lost years in the summer times

No family time! Lost relationships! What am I gonna do now? How am I gonna survive? When will my time come? Why won’t they talk to me? Where would I go, if not with you? I need and want family time. You wont let me. I pleaded and cried, slept and dreamt about the days where I actually had a family to back me up. You were never there. Now you want me to accept and forgive? You want me to be your daughter agin? Where were you when I needed help? Where were you when I felt betrayed by my “friends”? Where were you when I wanted to just lay asleep? You were never there for me, so why should I forgive you? Why should I push all my lost years without you aside? Huh? You treated me like nothing for years on end. I stupidly started to believe it. Days turned to moths that turned to years. Years?? Can you believe it years?? Years without a family to call my own! Years without people to give me advices like a normal family should! I felt nothing for you before and I feel nothing for you now! You left me to fend for myself since I was nine and now twenty years later, you come back? What happened to your amazing children? Huh? What happened to the golden child? What made you change your mind? Cause it’s sure wasn’t me that made you. Leave me to leave my OWN life, I’ve been doing it for like twenty years, so I’m capable of doing it for the rest of my life.