the lost rain ( 3 )
he signalled her to sit beside him. she took the seat and was deliberately looking on the floor... she was so focused as it seemed that she would make hole there. ..
"I liked you... " he said with a strange calmness overall on his face...
she was shocked.. she didn't expect those words... those words which she wanted to listen all the time.... are there... waiting for her to accept it was reality..... but the reality was harsh... harsh enough to overcome the sensation of those words....
...thinking about the fact that these could be the last words of the person whom she treasured most in her heart... her heart was gloomed..... her eyes were teary.... it seems to be like that the emotions which she was controlling for so much time could be flooded out anytime through her eyes...
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she was facing towards him... light coming from the window on her face and tears in her eyes had made them shining like a crystal.... but it the expressions on her face was empty... as she was nowhere there seems like she had lost herself at any place.....
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he continued....
"I liked you from the day you first appeared in school... that bright smile of your face captivated my heart.....
I was not able to understand my feelings that time... but as time pass my heart was clear ...
I love you...
I adored you....
I always wanted to protect you.... protect your innocence... protect your smile.....
**coughs ***
she hastily took the glass and was going to pour water... but at instant he caught her wrist and put her palm on her heart..... " my heart ached so much that I no longer protect you...
sorry... if... if... I could have become brave enough to tell you... if I was only brave enough to overcome the fear of losing you.... maybe I could court you.....
I would be able to love you and treasure you..
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but it's good that you don't have feelings for me....at least you can began your life ... " *tears rolled down his eyes...
she quickly took his hand and caressing her face on his hand looked into his eyes... "who said I don't have feelings for you.... I am angry... I don't want to see your face for telling me this now.... but I can't do anything as I had already made you my life.... you told me that you was afraid... I was afraid to... but now I want to tell you ... I like you too... I love you... I love you 100 times more every day... I felt secure around you... I could only rely on you... your words your actions ..when I were with you I couldn't control my heart
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I ached too for not telling but the truth is I loved you with all my heart and soul ...."..
tears rolled down her eyes....
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there was great silence among them... they were looking into each others eyes as they were lost there... they wanted to store this moment... want that it never end.... but both knew that.... these are only some last moments... after these moments they were be separated..... as such that they would never... never be able to see each other....
** he coughed again....
she held the glass and helped him drinking water... silence was growing.... suddenly he got flustered.... she slowly kissed on his head.... he closed his eyes.. tears were flowing from there eyes... the sensation was very strong.... their hearts were beating very fast... she then saw him with her wet eyes.... he pulled her near him and swiftly kiss her head.... after such warm action they both remained motionless for a long time.... holding each other...her forehead meeting his forehead.... tears rolling down their eyes..... they stayed there hugging each other for long time patting each other hairs as both of them are trying to console each other whereas both were at the edge of breaking down.... suddenly he coughed again..... it was not controlled by water this time..... the machine near started beeping..... he coughed blood again ..... she was flustered.... she didn't know what to do..... she started patting him looking him from up to down.... she was feeling helpless... 'doctor ' the word crossed in her mind... she ran carelessly screaming for doctor.. she got hit by the table near her.... her knee were injured.. but no now she can't afford to look even to think about it... she called more specifically screamed for doctor.... .. at nick of time doctor came.... in the meanwhile he had stopped coughing... blood had made thin line from his corner of lips to his earlobe ...but he didn't seemed to be worried.... he was continuously looking towards her.. with all warmth in his eyes signalling as if he is OK.. no need to fear....
but she knew nothing was okay... she was afraid... afraid of losing him... his family also came running their after the commotion.... his mother was weeping as she had become mad..... father was trying to convince him... ishi overall didn't knew the seriousness of the matter as she was only 9 but seeing the heart wrecking scene she was terrified... she also started crying... trying to hide in nairas skirt...she was unable to understand anything.... she only knew brother was ill and after treatment would return to home... but seeing everyone so panic she trembled.... but naira was standing silently on the door ..here eyes were looking constituently towards him... it looked like the she had lost everything..... she was standing there hollow as she had no emotions left within her... her and his eyes were locked..... he was continuously looking her... his face was strangely calm.... doctor was rushing doing this and that to save him.... but it seemed he was not getting little bit effects .... after the long fight of 30 minutes between doctor and him and his and her eyes... He suddenly smiled as brightly as he could holding all his pain.... waved his hand lightly towards her.... as asking for her to smile.....
surprisingly.... she smiled... as brightest as she could... her teary eyes and smile made her look like a fallen angel... seeing her like this.... he smiled again... nodding towards her slowly closed her eyes looking towards her as he was grasping her 100 times before shutting his eyes...
and beep.........
the doctors stopped.... the machine had drawn straight line.... his pulses were gone..... his heart stopped.... a tear was falling down from his closed eyes rolling down from his cheeks to his neck.... shined like a diamond as light from window fell on it..... he was looking extremely calm.... as he had no pain... no worries.... no fights.... nothing to lose.....
death was surely peaceful and beautiful.... and his angelic face was as calm as a sea after a terrible tides.....
doctors started giving him shock treatment.... but all their efforts were vain....
meanwhile when he was closing his eyes.... she also closed her eyes.... tears started falling down her eyes abruptly...
she lowered her head....
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and started moving towards the corridor.... she had locked his face in her eyes..... she smiled lightly... that smile looked like it had already made 1000 pieces of her heart.... with the flow of tears she looked to the moon.... which was shining there through all its strength..... a light wind blows near her hair and a drop from eyes fall on the earth.....
now she was calm.... it looked like storm was passed..... it blewed all her belongings as now she had nothing to lose... she was surprisingly quiet... she was as calm as a dead boy who was lying in the room..... it seemed like she was there standing lifelessly..... there was nothing in her eyes... not a single trance of sorrow not a pain.... no remorse no regret.. no tears... nothing.... as now she had no emotions.... as then her head spunned... as she had lost all her energy she was started trembling... her legs no longer had strength.. she was going to fall like a fallen building which is attacked by tsunami... suddenly.. someone grabbed her in his hands..... she was unable to see him because of her drowsiness.... and immediately faint in his hands.... and when her eyes were opened she was lying on the hospital bed.....
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..she was faint for 2 days..... as suddenly she realised and was about to get up ansh 's mother came and hugged her.... because of her warm gesture ....she who was still looking like a dead... started cried.... cried for hours...
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tears started falling down from her eyes..... remincising the past was not easy for her..... the rain was also helping her like giving her a rhythm to go for a look for her past memories.... and let her heart out.....
she suddenly started looking towards the sky..... closing her eyes she was feeling each drop of water on her face as water was flowing down from her hairs to her cheeks....passing through her ....she was somehow feeling the same emotion as she felt that day while giving last goodbye to her first love... she was in the roller coaster of emotions..... suddenly her phone rang..... her attention which was nowhere to be found entirety went towards the phone .... unwanting she took out his phone and took the call...
" rara where are u.... we r finding u long.... ur father is worried.... come home fast ....we were all worried to death..... ur father is throwing huge tantrums.... be fast rara.... "
and the call was cut..... she took the deep sigh... and messaged her chauffer to come pick up.... thinking the way to console her father... she once lost in her thoughts.... till the car stopped near the park.... a old man carrying umbrella... ran towards her.... "young miss.. be fast.. unless you will catch the cold "
she silently followed him under the umbrella... her looks were totally changed.... in place of the weak and fragile girl who was broken as the ruins there was a powerful and strong lady... whose aura was depicting like she has no place of weakness.... an extremely cold and strong aura had covered her... she entered in her black luxury SUV...
she was moving towards her house... and now her mind was completely focused on the fact how to console his father who had now made the whole house up and down....
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