14 'Regret'

'RSK!'

'Is this because of you?'

'How can you do this?'

'How come you became so selfish?'

Yun trembled along with his inner soul cursing him badly- as he moved through the brunt, obliterated and unrecognizable corpses of the dead; With cries and tears of the families roaring everywhere-

The unbearable cries of the mothers and sisters engulfing Yun's senses, his senses befalling upon him like a keen weapon-

The sobbing of children, and their widowed mothers tearing up Yun's mind into pieces-

Yun was just like a living corpse moving through the chaos; with a soul which was also losing the hope to go further, same as the body.

RSK, being protected inside his bodily identity as a prince, was in a storm of regrets-

With his eyes down with regret, he moved through the steep narrow path- covered with the stench of death, dying, and the sorrow of the families of people they belonged to.

-All, was because of him; his selfishness.

'But, I didn't want this!'

'I just wanted to escape my fate!', RSK muttered to himself- trying to escape from the immense guilt he faced as he saw so much bloodshed and people dead-

Just for the sake of him-

A soul, that even didn't belong to their world.

'They died because of you!'

'You killed them!'

"My hh-head..", RSK cried; as he covered his ears tight with his hands, his eyes closed-

He was bombarded with a dense feeling of 'Guilt', from every end of his senses-

Soon,

He, being not able to hold anymore-

Fell down to the ground-

His knees into the blood-damped mud of the path, dragging him down-

He burst into cries!

He may be an adult prince outside, But he was just a common teenager inside!

How can someone hold,

So much grieving cold-

Who is so bold?

He hadn't ever seen-

so much death!

so much grief!

For the first time, RSK regretted this much in his life-

His single nasty trick, even saving his life- was causing him to lose living his life!

With his head down with the shame, and unbearable regret- made him sob badly; the same as a teenager cries while losing something.

And here, He hadn't lost something surreal-

but, he lost his will to live!

The 'will', he had kept while being separated from his Hometown, his family, his past- was 'dying' with the ailing regrets, caused by his deeds.

It was like every single person surrounding him, was cursing him; not to mention his own conscience was lost in it all.

"Is it me, who killed them?", RSK muttered again, with his hands grasping the blood-stained sword beside him-

"It was me, who was to be killed yesterday; now it is them who died because of me- A person, who was just being selfish to save himself! Why them? Why don't my plan failed?...", RSK cried in an agony of regrets.

His hands covered with the mud and blood, clasping the sharp, blood stained-blade of the sword- which soon, being tightly held; bathed with the rushing blood of RSK's hands, which he tightened unaware of the physical pain he suffered because of it-

The world surrounding him wasn't his own-

but, he was crying for them-

"-So many people died, just because of me?", he cried- "If this death and sorrow are what destiny wants, I will betray it!", he cried- his hands directing the sword to his heart.

The people beside him, still unaware of him being a prince in plain clothes and misery; didn't recognize him- no one knew this man kneeling down in the mud, was none other than the Prince of Xijin- even if so; the 'commoner' soul inside him, made those differences dissipate-

No one was to stop him.

A single thrust of the sword- and he is free from this world!

'Don't do this!'- a deep voice whispered past into his ears.

"Why shouldn't?.."- RSK, suddenly being annoyed by the voice yelled out,"...These misfortunes, they are following me- I didn't wanted people to die because of me..."

'But, Rather than dying- you can avenge them though!... Why you want to die?'- The voice rustled again.

"Why I want to die?-", RSK smiled with a sad face; still closing his eyes- "As I am here- the world before me is already red with bloodshed, back then, when I was kidnapped- it was the whole Caizhou red with bloodshed, Now-", stopping for a moment; RSK opened his eyes finding the source of the sound-

But, there wasn't anyone talking to him-

"No one?"

RSK turned his eyes all around the compound, his eyes still seeing the same scene of disparity; But, there wasn't anyone talking to him-

His face giving off an aura of confusion-

"Wait!-"

". . . Where are you?"

He soon realized that there was no object to receive his questioning, he was all at his own.

No one was there talking to him-

"No one here at all? Is this a joke?" he muttered, confused.

Turning his shaken eyes around the compound, RSK could still see the very same place as before--But there was no one talking to him, no one at all.

His face contorted to match the feeling welling up inside of him--the feeling of confusion took one bite after another of his mind, almost making him freaked out.

"Your Highness!"

A distant voice rang along with his ears, alarming his senses-

RSK turned around, again finding for the source of the voice-

It was Dai fu who was seeking someone with a worried face, looking for Yun-

"Yun! There you are-!", a herdable thought lingered over Daifu's face; as he came closer to the Man kneeling to the Ground with an ashen face- "-What are you doing here?", He continued, "We looked for you for such a long time- I thought you are in danger again..."

"So, it was you who stopped me...eh?", Yun didn't let Daifu complete his words.

-"...Yes? Maybe!", Dai Fu replied with a confused face.

Both, being confused about each other stared at each other-

"Lord!"

A voice broke the state of confusion between the two men.

"Lord? Your Hand-", The voice continued with a mixed tone- "You are injured!"

Zhang came running towards the two men, with a bunch of soldiers accompanied with.

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