The One That Got Away

Person: Jin

Maybe it was the day or maybe it was the weather but I always felt especially lost around this time.

Love

It's Prominent, one of the most important things a human being can have. it's what keeps the world in motion it's what keeps life being breathed into this world and I just- couldn't be like the others but it was fine because I work and I have my whole life ahead of me. So the past couldn't have power over me. I couldn't be broken

But even still

The rain-

The thing that we used to run around and play in. Not caring if we smelled like wet dogs or if we would get sick the next day. All that mattered in those moments was each other. We didn't care how the water clung to our skin or how silly we liked to others as long as he was smiling none of it mattered. Cause he was mine and I was his and we were young and in love.

Maybe that's what the couple caught my eye and all I could do was watch as the rain fell and they suddenly became all I could see. The couple walking by smiling happily. They were wearing matching tees and jeans. The way they looked into each other's eyes. They were so in love and smiled so goofily. It..reminded me of him... The guy I had given everything to. He had given me the best of him but that was … never enough. I had been a fool and let the curtain on us shut. Tears filled my eyes as I thought about all our past conversations and all the promises we had lost or broken. I began to walk over to the crosswalk.

As the rain drenched me I stood there staring up into the rain. Feeling the coldness. I wonder if this is what he felt. So broken and alone. I breathed in the scent of the rain and remembered. His face in the sun. I remembered the last conversation, the last time he laughed. The last time we held hands together the warmth it held. I remember our first kiss and how breathless it left me. I was breathless and scrambled through my bag. Looking for my phone. I picked it up and called him need to hear something if nothing but his voicemail. I him I need his strength.

"Hello" his voice instantly ignited a fire within me and warmed up my body in ways nothing else could.

"Hello, ... Kitten?" his voice soft.

" I-" my voice cracked as I hesitated. I had hoped that we still connected enough for him to know without me saying it. He sighed softly on the phone. Tears fell down my cheek as I began to stutter out the words. When he spoke :

" I miss you too"

I choked down a tear

He missed me too.

But… I was so weak, I was weak now I couldn't even move on. The need to hear him, his voice the only thing keeping me going.

"Whatever it is, it's going to be okay " As he continued on giving me words of encouragement I got lost in his voice closing my eyes as it felt like he was here. Right next to me, I could see his soft yet enchanting smile. I could see his doe brown eyes cresting as he looked down at me. His hair was wet from the rain yet still perfectly styled.

" I miss you " I whimpered my heart ached for release every day. " I know- " He chuckles "god I know and I'm here, kitten you know I'm here for you" he spoke lovingly.

" yeah, and I know but -" I smiled at him my eyes never leaving his.

10- 9-

"But- what kitten?" He asked confused and I began to count down in my head.

 8-7-

" I- I gotta go it time "I smiled

6-5

"I love you "

4-3

" I love you too kitten "

2-

"goodbye kitten " his voice reverberating in my ear as I opened my eyes and took a step forward. After the call, everything may have seemed fine but the real heartbreak was on the

~ other side of the phone ~

" I'll see you soon "

*Click*

"Who was that ?" His wife asked curiously

And as much as he wanted to explain it all without hating himself and the situation he couldn't answer. Because how could He tell her that the Woman whose grief he indulged wasn't just Someone else? She was his past, and his future locked away and cast aside. She was the one who got away~. So instead he sighed

" … i- it was my brother's girlfriend " He chuckles softly still facing the door unable to face the woman he had made his wife.

"Brother.. wait, Your twin?" she spoke confusedly. "But he passed away didn't he?" He sniffled in response.

"...Yeah..." he replied softly before turning around his eyes on the verge of breaking into tears. His wife took him in her arms as he felt his old wounds opening.