1079 The Things He Felt II

Azief thought that if there is one thing that would ground him to his own existence it would be anger, or negative emotions or some darkness in his heart.,

He had studied about not drowning into the consciousness of a grand will. 

As such, he knew that negative emotions also work. Hatred, revenge, this kind of obsession is very powerful and it sometime defines a person.

This kind of feeing could be used to break out from that feeling of wanting to be in unity with a grand will.

But…. he had never thought, that instead of feeling all of that, seeing all of the things that he hated about himself, all he could see, all he could feel was…...love

And it is not even the big things. It is the small things. The little gestures. The smiles, the laugh, the gaze that lingers in his heart and in his soul

Such memories that imprinted so strongly in his soul…that he could not erase it.