2 No Difference

^TWO^

The rays on my face. Open the eyes to see the beautiful and bright sky. The sky during the day is very bright illuminated by sunlight and accompanied by clouds that add to the beauty of the sky like a new world. It is not like before. Stunned to enjoy the beauty of susana in the morning until I forgot that today is school day and then pack, refresh, prepare and tidy up quickly for the beginning of a new life. Everything is complete today with a sweet smile and facial expressions that are no longer full of depression, stress and loneliness. This is the day I have been waiting for.

Stepping out the door by saying today I changed. Walk with new feelings like joy and confidence that is never locked in the heart. Every path passed was filled with beautiful light. Arriving at my school, I felt the feeling only for a moment. My confidence has been requested when I arrived in a place full of evil bullies. Stepping in with fear was visible on my face.

Head to the classroom alone as usual. When I arrived at the classroom, depression began to appear in me. Sitting next to a window with no friends next door. Put my head on the table and close my eyes to calm down but my hair was pulled roughly to the floor by a female bully. They took me to the toilet and watered me with dirty water. Then I was beaten by them until I could not stand on my feet. Suddenly it seemed to me to be blurry and continue to be dark.

A cold feeling began to be felt. Eyes began to open. Looks the same and no difference. Being in the toilet helplessly no one offered help. There is no difference between old and new life. This self has given up on everything. Thinking about the advice of my only friend made me want to bounce back from the horrible reality. He cleaned himself and then came out with a facial expression as if nothing had happened like a forced smile. Heading to the classroom saw many students spending their time together.

They look happy when I am away but my existence makes them angry. I feel like I was told to leave here by bullying. Thinking of something that could not make them angry over my existence.

RINGGG.....

It sounds like the bell sounds like the thing I was thinking about earlier has been decided. I decided to move school using my savings. The money was supposed to buy my necessities but for the happiness of others I should have resigned and moved to another school. Will I be fine if I move school? Will my fate change? Think while walking home.

Walking while bowing my head in shame for my miserable life. I hope I will change one day. This is because I believe in Alex's words. He is the bearer of spirit as a friend in my life. Now, arriving at my house by opening the door of my heart I feel happy to see my cat sleeping in a cute way. Cleanse yourself and then continue to drop this lethargic body into bed and go to the beautiful dream world out of reality.

Open my eyes again but all the feelings inside me yesterday are gone. Facial ripples have changed to an original full of hatred, depression and disgust. Is yesterday's feeling no longer there? Start your heart by stepping out of the house and head straight to school for the decision I made yesterday. I will send a letter to my class teacher to move schools. Sadness trapped my soul as I wrote this letter. I know this is the best way for all who want to be happy without my existence. Now, we will not meet again after this letter is in the hands of my teacher. Being free is a pain because I am free not for my own happiness but for the happiness of others.

I know that this school means a lot to me even though I am often insulted and neglected by everyone in this school because this school has given me a lot of knowledge since I was 13 years old and now I am 17 years old. I held on to this painful feeling for 4 years being at this school but I was that I would have the same thing if I moved school. Someone like me does not deserve to be appreciated and respected but only one who understands my feelings is my friend, Alex. I am very indebted to him even though he was just my first friend.

I arrived in front of the school. My heart was beating fast, my hands were shaking and my face looked like an insane person. Can I do all this? Stepping foot and at that moment it turned out I was going to leave in a few minutes after sending the school resignation letter. Holding hands tightly to reduce my fear as I headed to the teacher's room. Entering the room made my grip stronger. Standing in front of my teacher, a teacher with a hungry face like a tiger.

My teacher did not like me because I was always told bad things by the students at this school. Swallowing saliva because anxiety has taken control of my body. He handed a letter to my teacher saying "I want to leave school because I will leave home" then my teacher nodded his head and that means this is the last day for me to be here. I will get out of here in a few unexpected steps

Walking with a tired body headed home while thinking about which school I enrolled in. I stood in front of the entrance of the house imagining whether what I was doing was true? If I did this would my life change? I think my life will not change if I do not have confidence and confidence in myself. Open the door knob and open my laptop to do a school search for my school transfer. This heart still tears when I remember my memories at school before. I know that her memories are not as beautiful and not as sweet as other people's memories but they are still meaningful memories for me who are weak.

Tears have been flowing since I decided to go to school. After a few minutes, I saw a school name that attracted me. I get the feeling that I can change if I go to school there. So, without thinking anymore I continued to apply myself to the school. I have to wait a few minutes to find out the results of my application at the school. Waiting patiently until I felt drowsy and decided to sleep for a while. I hope when my eyes open from my sleep the results of the application will be successful.

Opening my eyes from my sleep which felt very short. Looking out the window you can see the dark sky and only the moon and stars. Looking at the wall clock in my room by rubbing my eyes so that it looks clear but I do not believe that I have fallen asleep to a deep sleep. I remember the important thing I should know is the decision to apply for a new school.

I got up from my bed quickly and continued to involve my laptop which was not shut down. I was looking for an application I made this afternoon. Then, I saw a message displayed on my laptop screen. It says that my application has been accepted and that means I have succeeded. Alu feels very happy. Now I am not a student from my old school because I am a new student.

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