3 Despair

As the weeks went on I grew even more introspective. After my friends were stripped away for me I was left with just myself. Hatred, disgust and self loathing seemed to be all that was left. I learned that it's hard to find anything good about yourself when you believe you betrayed someone's trust. Yet I didn't stop. I started therapy to try to change my ways of thinking. After that my hatred dissipated leaving me with only despair for a future where I'm not alone. I thought at first I was just lonely but I realized that it wasn't a feeling of aloneness that I was expiring, I was completely and utterly alone without a single soul around me.